ness's log :-)

a couple of 21st pics

2006-08-03T22:04:00.000+10:00

such a strange few weeks...

2006-07-31T19:28:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I haven't written in a while, i guess cuz i've been so busy with all my co corricular adventures. The Journalism industry night is on wednesday, and I'm totally stressed about it, and then there's the ball coming up soon! So very very busy. And i have so many uni functions coming up, so although they will be fun, i don't forsee a free night in a very long time :-S

I had my 21st a few weeks ago!!! It was soooo much fun, Nadalie, Bram, KJ and illy made cool ass speeches, the venue was awesome and I couldn't believe how much effort everyone put into dressing up! :-) One person even hired a jail suit and said they were the gangster that got caught - so cute! Will post photos asap. I definitely had the best time, and i'm so glad everyone came. Thanks heaps for all your presents!!!!

Last weekend was Nadalie's 21st too - and that was awesome, although a very weird night. See, people from my high school who I wasn't exactly friends with were there. I think the most nerve racking part of the night was making my speech - its so weird talking in front of people like that, but i totally nailed it, and people came up to me all night to tell me how great my speech was. AND THEN the weirdest thing happened - one of the girls who i was totally enemies with came up and asked to start afresh! Apparently seeing me there made her look at me differently, and I seem really nice, and it turns out that me and nat are obviously pretty good together. She even told someone i look really good... ok so MAYBE she was drunk but i'm taking it for the compliment it is :-) it was so weird but cuz we left the convo (well we got kicked out cuz the club closed) and then we were going to meet up later, but then we went home. So it's hard to know where we stand now. I mean, if i run into her at uni should i say hi? Pretend nothing happened? I dunno. But that wasn't the best part. Today i just got a message from someone who i used to think was a friend, but then i came to my senses and realised she really didn't care about me like a real friend would. And i think, in a round about way, she kind of apologised for not being as generous to me as i was to her. The funny thing was tho she mentioned she thought we'd reconcile our differences on sat night. I can't believe she'd think we could do that. One thing i learnt, particularly from one high school ex best friend, is that people don't change. No matter how much you wish they'd be there for you or be loyal to you when you need it most, they don't, because they have some selfish factor that will never go away. I guess i only figured that out for sure this year - i mean, my friends from the start of uni like KJ, Rich, Illy and Bram are awesome, but sometimes i felt a little, i don't know how to put it, maybe like i don't deserve to be their friends. I mean, in high school i was friends with people who bitched about me every day, put me down whenever i tried to feel up, and the one that just messaged me - In possibly the most depressing part of my life, when i needed her to just be there, well i'm still hearing about how she felt like i used her from other people. Funny considering she just told me i was more generous to her than she ever could be to me.

But this year has been different - i've met so many new people and it feels like every week i make a stack of new friends who are nice and caring and actually put in effort back. So maybe those high school people are in the minority. And maybe, as I experienced recently through some news on an ex-best friend, just maybe some people get what they deserve for acting the way they do. And maybe after you put up with a lot of shit and go through the difficulty of trying to be friends with these sorts of people, you get what you deserve too.

So what do i write back to the message that was sent to me? Do i even write back at all? I know whatever I do i'll be happy, and no one needs to validate that anymore cuz when i look in the mirror i'm proud of everything i've done in my life, what i'm doing now and what i know will happen in the future.

I guess i no longer wish for a crystal ball to show me what is gonna happen. Cuz if my karma theory is right, i'll be fine no matter what.

Anywayz enough rambling on this for now... love ness xoxoxoxoxo

i need sleep...

2006-06-04T18:43:00.001+10:00

Heya,

Last night was so awesome! It was a shit place but whenever you have heaps of friends somewhere it always ends up being good... other than being a little unwell it was awesome! :-) And friday we went and had parmas at the Skinny Dog in High Street which was bery yum. I normally don't like parmas but this one was really good... we ended up at icon bar which was really fun, we were all dancing on the bar at one point or another! :-) I ended up with the biggest bruise on my knee from jumping up there tho... All in all it was a good weekend, elly hooked up with a funny american that bram and nat bagged her for... GO steven! :-)

We got home at like 6 this morning, poor tanya and bram were gonna catch the train but it never came so had to catch a taxi... stupid transport system... :-) i slept till like 1 today but am still feeling tired.. although not as tired as bram would be, he had archery this morning and then a 30th. But i was so proud of him for putting up with house music for so long last night, i dunno if i could do that with his music!

I've talked Gavin, my personal trainer, into doing squash with me for our cardio workout. It's so much fun, way better than just running or the stupid rowing machine! Bram and me have challenged one another... so soon i'll probably get my ass kicked but who knows... maybe i'm a natural :-)

Can't wait to go to New York! Only 3 weeks to go now... it sucks but cuz i'm missing out on birthdays and waterskiing stuff and lots of other outings... oh well, i'm sure i'll enjoy myself where i'm going! :-) We're looking up shows to go to and stuff, we're gonna do a sex and the city tour, a tv tour that takes us to the friends hang out, nypd blue, all these cool shows, and we're gonna go to the theatre version of The Wedding Singer! :-) It's me and elly's fave movie like ever so should be heaps of fun.

Anywayz, i'm off to sleep. Gotta start thinking about studying for my exam... we're gonna do a group thing but somehow i think that won't get us very far :-)

Luv ness xoxoxoxo

i need sleep...

2006-06-04T18:43:00.000+10:00

HDs galor! is that how u spell galor?

2006-05-31T23:01:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I got a HD on my media law essay! and me and elly got an over HD on our radio journalism essay! that puts us on a HD for the whole subject! Anywayz, just wanted to announce that to the whole world cuz omg thats so awesome!

luv ness xoxoxo

I'm free! (well sort of)

2006-05-29T16:21:00.000+10:00

Hey!

Just had two out of three tests today! SO excited, now I don't have anything for another 2 weeks, and that exam will be so easy anyway. Then its 6 weeks of holidays, new york, and my 21st! There's soooo much to look forward to right now.... tomorrow i have to finalise my list, although i'm sure there'll be a few added after i go to new york. I wrote out my list on the way to china, but because i couldn't go through my phone to remember everyone i ended up forgetting like some of my closest friends... so i think i might re do it :-) And New York! OMG! I cannot wait to go... i haven't been away for that long in ages, espec without my family or nat. I can't wait to make heaps of new friends and have an awesome time going designer shopping with Elly and finding hot american boys to perve at! :-)

China was sooo much fun, just mum and me so very relaxed. We just shopped basically, and dad bought me the most beautiful diamond necklace! And me and mum got one to share. We're gonna go back to china in october, and go via hong kong so we can buy some real designer stuff. Then we're gonna catch a train to China, and stop off at the border where the biggest shopping centre in China exists. I think it might be a good idea to leave my credit card at hoome for the that one maybe? :-) Apparently the shanghai market is closing, and it was really hard to get bags this time cuz people are leaving and stuff, which sucks. But we got the number of a woman who even sells the bags on the internet, and she's gonna let us know where to go to find her. Oh, and we had hot pot one night, which is like steam boat except the bowl is in the table... it was awesome! :-) The language barrier is really weird, I've never been in that kinda situation before where noone can understand me. Like when we got our nails done, and when I bought clothes, having to explain what I wanted was really hard. But its funny how important facial expressions become. Like they'll say something in chinese but their face explains what they mean.

Now that i've finished my tests i feel so much better... I can go back to having a social life! :-) Friday night I'm going to some cool traders bar with some uni friends and maybe other people, and on saturday night I'm off to a waterskiing club dinner with more uni friends, then hopefully i'll be able to get to Sheridan's bday. So should be an exciting weekend! :-)

See ya xoxoxoox

A big week...

2006-05-14T22:30:00.000+10:00

Heya,

Finally i get some time to sit and do nothing. Wednesday night was the wonderful night of nights - when we got to meet comic genius wil anderson! He was soooo funny on stage, and although he was different in real life he was really nice and answered any questions we had. He even had a pic with me! Yes, I know its blurry, but i don't care, i still cherish it!

Anyways, It was like my first celebrity interview and he was the perfect interviewee. Before we did the interview he was one of 4 comedians who performed at Monash Clayton, and the one before him was soooo bad. I guess like anyone the guy just had a bad day, but being in front of an audience and trying to be funny it'd be 1000 times worse than any normal person's bad day. But wil saved the show, making a joke about how the guy dug a hole so deep it looked like there were miners coming out :-) And as well as being hilarious he was also kinda insightful too, which was cool. Well, it wasn't lost on those of us who didn't take advantage of the cheap vb's anyway! :-)

So got home from that at like 1am, and elly gave wil a lift to his hotel, which was soooo cool!... then the next night was the booze cruise. I had no idea it'd be so good - i mean, i knew it'd be good but i dunno, maybe it's something about being on the boat or something, it was just heaps of fun!

The theme was wild wild west as you can prob see, and we just had an awesome time. Nat got really drunk, and told elly all about what a wonderful girlfriend i am apart from being so messy! :-) My lips ended up so red cuz of the cruisers.... must learn to only drink white ones!

Also went to the drinking races at Swimburne on friday night, which was sooo funny. It's the first year Monash Caulfield have had a team, and although we lost, I made a class A number 1 cheerleader! :-) the theme was feeding time at the zoo, and the costumes were hilarious. Some went as steaks, one as a breeding inspector (he ended up naked, surprise surprise), some frogs, vets, and one of my mates went in a tux as a penguine :-) Was pretty funny stuff, particularly seeing some of the freaky RMIT guys from arts camp! One sunk to a new low that night - telling Michael Jackson jokes. I mean, they're not funny anymore, seriously... :-) But we got total revenge on this guy, cuz we got hold of his phone at one stage. About 25 random i love you messages later he caught us... but before you think i'm a bitch, he will prob use it to talk about the AWESOME night he had and how trashed he and all his mates were. So everyone wins! :-)

Then I went out for dinner with nadalie and some other ppl on sat night, then off to illy's mum's bday. But was so stuffed, I piked out at like 10 and came straight to bed. Then had to get up this morning to cook mum breakfast and give her presents... thank god she liked them! :-) We went out for lunch today then to nat's parent's house for dinner. So right now all I wanna do is SLEEP...

Anyways, going to the booking night for the ski trips the ski club is running on wednesday. Can't wait to go to falls creek, should be so good. Might go to bed now for that much desperately needed sleep...

See ya xoxoxoxo

i HATE hay fever...

2006-05-09T19:09:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I thought i had a cold this morning, but no... it just had to be hay fever, didn't it! Hay fever is so much worse... it's just continual, like continually feeling something stuck up your nose that makes you cry and ache all over your face....

But anyway, enough whinging... the buize cruize is on thursday night! :-) Still unsure about how i'm gonna go dressing up, hopefully i'll find something tomorrow or something. Went to Adam's last night which was really fun, it turns out he goes to the same uni as me and so today we caught up! And table sitting for the buise cruise tickets... arrgh, it can get so boring! But when there's other ppl there its fun. I just can't wait till thursday cuz it will be the culmination of a shit load of work, on everyone's part. And Elly's coming too, which is so cool cuz she's so cynical bout uni events! heehee :-)

Oh yeah, meeting wil anderson tomorrow night! We're interviewing him for our radio show. I just wanna get a photo with him, he's soooo funny... I'm nervous but cuz he's like the first celebrity i've interviewed. It should be interesting! :-)
Anyway gotta go eat dinner,

Luv ness xoxox

SEX IT UP! :-)

2006-05-05T18:32:00.000+10:00

Heya,

Sex it up party/week was soooo much fun! I dressed as a cheerleader and nat dressed as a basketballer. It was so funny, he winged for ages bout having to wear a basketball top (i felt he was getting off lightly) and i was so frustrated at his winging, and then nad's boyf Tomma got in the car and winged just as much bout wearing a suit (he was a boss, she was a secretary). It must be a guy thing... :-) Everyone dressed up so well but, a lot of effort was went to.. I was still the only cheerleader tho so was quite happy :-) It was also a good chance to catch up with uni friends - haven't seen some since arts camp...

Got the buize cruise coming up on thursday, its wild wild west dress! Still dunno whether to go all out or not... i mean, walking around the city as a saloon girl isn't exactly inconspicuous... but if everyone goes full costume i guess it will be fun!

Got my work published in the sex it up magazine too which was pretty cool. 2 articles aint bad considering how many people wrote for it :-)

Went to Veronicas a couple of weeks ago! They were really good, but i thnk i was scarred by the backstreet boys cuz now every concert i'm disappointed. But i got to dress all punk like... and nat's reaction to seeing me with black hair and red lipstick was hilarious :-)

Went to radio journalsim class today, for our final assignment we're doing a real radio show on DIY, the monash radio station. Everyone has to listen to me at 1pm-2pm on Monday the 29th May! Dunno the dial for DIY but I'm sure I'll find out. I'm on the news committee for that too and my first item is drugs and alcohol on campus and in uni clubs... pretty ironic considering how i'm helping get the alcohol for the booze cruise and our signs say get parra on the yarra! :-) Everyone is really cool at DIY tho. Phil, the manager, helped us with our assignment sooo much... we even called him last night at home and he helped.

Also has illy's 21st last saturday! Was heaps of fun, and thank god people laughed at the jokes in my speech :-)

Anyway, I gotta go write an assignment on Zoolander. I love my course! lol

See ya xoxo

quick hi

2006-04-19T23:58:00.000+10:00

Heya,

My legs hurt sooo much... Gavin stretched me today and it wasn't pretty... I think i am possibly the most unflexible person ever :-P

It's been mid semester break since last friday, thank god - i was desperate for a sleep in.. it's just a shame that i haven't really had one yet :-) Have been doing heaps of JAM stuff, and am getting ready to help in the ball committee. The theme is prob gonna be halloween, which at first seemed kinda weird but on second thoughts it seems pretty cool. I wanna go as a snow queen :-) Oh and I"m off to the Veronicas on sat night with Nad and Courtney, which I'm sooooooo excited about! I got a punk-like outfit to wear, red lipstick and black hair spray... it was so funny tho, i did a trial tonight and nat freaked when he saw me... he told me i'm never allowed to dye my hair black :-)

We're going costume shopping soon for the sex it up party, which should be ... interesting! Nat wants to go as Hugh Hefner and me go as a playboy bunny but dunno if i have the guts... i wanna go as a cheerleader or a camper girl :-) But will come up with some more ideas as we shop. And the buize cruise is coming up, so we have to get costumes for that... the theme is cowboys :-) I love wearing costumes so i'm really looking forward to it!

Anyway, off to take pain killers for my legs and get some sleep. Must do homework sometime soon, but dunno if that will happen with all the winter wardrobe updating to be done! :-)

luv ness xoxoxoxoxo

aah...i have time :-)

2006-04-12T22:51:00.000+10:00

Heya,

Yay! Nat won :-) and i looked like the biggest idiot, there were some girls on the other team scoring with me and they had to help me with who scored what cuz of my bad eye site. then i tripped in front of them while walking out. So they're definitely thinking i'm a dumb blonde right now... :-)

Anywayz... so, lots has happened since i last wrote! I have done heaps of stuff for JAM, or journalism adveritsing and media (i can say it sooo fast by now!) and got involved in the arts club. Just last weekend was the camp which was soooo much fun. Lots of funny stuff happened, particularly the sleazy silly rmit guys - they got so drunk, they'd come have a go at you, you'd tell them to go away, then 3 mintues later they'd forget and come at you again :-) the funniest was when me and cara were using this guy as our protection, then one rmiter tried both of us, and then couldn't understand how we could both be our protector's girlfriends... or the film student, when he found out i was doing journalism he yelled 'i wanna film you!'... ah, doing what buddy? very interesting bunch :-p But it was sooo good, i loved the camping experience, particularly with a large group, lots of drinking fun can be had :-) I wanna be on the ball committee this year, but will see how it goes. Decorating for the ball would be so much fun! :-)

I'm also going to New York on the 22nd of june! Yay! It's a journalism field trip where we visit CNN, new york times, reuters, Columbia University and even the David Letterman show! I'll miss my 21st here, but it'll be worth it, and spending my bday in New York will be totally memorable :-) Speaking of, I found the PERFECT venue for my 21st, and have just booked it. I'm so organised for it, it's not for like 3 months and i have the dress, shoes, invites, venue, entertainment and even the make up and hair i want! I guess i love to party a little too much :-)

Just recently, for JAM, Hamish and Andy, through fame of FOX FM and lots of other media, agreed to do an interview with us! It's so cool, it's my first ever famous interview, and i'm soooo gonna get a photo with them. Hopefully it happens cuz they're really funny and cool! :-)

Had bram's 21st a few weeks ago, which me and kj helped decorate for. Was heaps of fun! Especially making our own cocktails. We made lots of vanessas and a kikiness :-) Oh yeah and i've taken up personal training... my pt Gavin is sooo nice, and trust me, otherwise i wouldn't be going cuz he works me too hard....

Got easter coming up, definitely looking forward to massive amounts of chocolate! It's the only day of the year i allow myself to eat it for breakfast... yum yum! Yes Gavin, I know to watch it... :-) and mid semester break should be good too. I've actually been going to all my classes surprise surprise. I guess it's mainly because a lot of my friends are at uni now.. and i don't wanna miss any social gatherings now :-)

Am going out next week hopefully with my friend Elly to explore Brunswick St. She was quite shocked that I'd never visited it before, so we're gonna go check it out. It should be interesting!

Anywayz, i'm still catching up on my sleep from the weekend. Got the arts club booze cruise coming up, it's cowboy costume, so i'm getting my ensemble all ready!

See ya xoxoxoxo

who likes blue? I do!

2006-04-12T20:17:00.000+10:00

Heya,

So, i haven't written for a good few months now! I think i was really sick of the pink, i mean, it was starting to look kinda sickly... Anyways, i guess i haven't had time lately too.. Life has been too busy! :-) I have so much to write about, but will do so when I get back from nat's bball game.
It's so cold! I don't wanna go to the stupid game!!!! Ah well, i guess thats what you do for those you love (and it gives you bargaining power too :-) )

See ya xoxoxo

heres to new beginnings!

2005-12-08T22:19:00.000+11:00

Hey,

Well italked to nat about america and he agrees that i should go myself. it'll be hard and he keeps telling me he'll miss me heaps, but we both know i need to do it. And it's given him an insentive to ask for a pay rise cuz the more money we have saved the more we can visit each other :-)

I have been trying to do all this business stuff by myself and i figure it's really too hard. I mean, i never realised how important all the marketing stuff is, which is why i think i needa do this with kj. She really knows her stuff in that department, and she's really been doing half the work lately anyway. so i guess we'll see how it goes. She agrees that it'll be good for her to be a partner, because she's always wanted to own her own business and this is a good way to learn about how it works. So we're both gonna benefit out of it no matter what. And plus she's defering next year so she won't have the demands of uni, and with me only doing 3 subjects per semester neither will i so much. Practically it just works. But it should be fun too! Even if it goes nowhere we'll learn heaps, and if it goes somewhere then even better... :-)

Anyway i gotta go eat dinner. yes i no it's very late for dinner but nat insisted on cooking and what he chose to cook took like forever. He's so cute! :-)
See ya xoxo

only 21 days to go :-)

2005-12-04T20:50:00.000+11:00

Hey,

I love christmas. I don't care if it's dorky or immature, decorating a christmas tree and picking out presents for people is sooo much fun! If i had to pick between my bday and christmas, christmas would win every time. So me and nat sat down and wrote our present list list tonight, and i think, or i hope, we got everyone covered. Still unsure of what we're doing on christmas day but it'll come together soon. And with christmas close by that means camping is close by too! :-) We worked out some dates to start with and will talk to everyone bout whether its possible. I wanna get an awesome tan :-)
Went to dinner with rich and kj last night... they were staying at the Langham for his 21st birthday gift, so we had dinner at crown then saw Harry Potter... It was actually an ok movie, i haven't read any of the books or seen any of the movies but i understood what was ging on so i'm pretty happy with that :-) And then we went to the casino and i lost all my money, all $10 of it... i'm so unlucky at those things, i mean seriously, going against my feeling or for it i ALWAYS lose. Lucky it was only $10 hey :-)
I had dancing rehearsals on sat, got the concert next saturday and our costumes were sooo bad. They were ballet costumes and we're doing a jazz piece. So i'm going shopping tomorrow to find something else. And i needa finish my brochure for the dance school too, but then i'm free to do what i like with my time! heehee, valet parking at chaddy here i come!

See ya xoxo

Listening to the Love Generation song on the ministry of sound cd at the moment! :-)

haha, laguna beach made me think :-p

2005-12-02T22:43:00.000+11:00

Hey,

I got to have the night to myself tonight... i was gonna go out with nat and his mates but when i got home from work i was sooooo not in the mood. Watching all the tv shows i don't get the chance to with nat around (mostly soap aperary ones) was pretty tempting, and there was a laguna beach marathon on tonight that i couldn't resist. :-) I can't believe i actually like that show! I'm normally so against those all-team american shows where every girl has kissed every other girls boyfriend, with many pillow fights in lingere to fill the spaces in between. But hey, i'm human, and sometimes i'm allowed to indulge myself god damn it! :-) So anyway, the wonderfully intelligent episode tonight that stuck in my head was the one where they all go off to college. It was so sad, they had to say good bye to all their friends. It was weird watching them all go their seperate ways, if that were me i'd be sooo upset. My friends are one of the most important things to me, it'd be so bad having to say goodbye and knowing u might not ever see most of them again. Keeping in touch without physically being there is damn hard, although i think if it happened to me i would be able to handle it ok.

I think it's time to face reality... nat isn't gonna go to america with me. If i wanna go i have to go alone. And everything is coming down on me to make me stay at the moment. I've met heaps of new people these last few weeks and made lots of friends. Nat can't go because of his job for at least 5 years. Maybe the jewellery thing will take off and i won't be able to leave here. And i always thought that i could never leave nat, that a long distance relationship was not ever going to be an option for us. Wherever one of us needed to be, the other would follow. The idea of me going to america and him staying here is the most depressing thought ever right now.

But i still wanna go. I really don't wanna let go of that dream, it was always so important to me, and i don't just wanna be some bottom of the rung journalist in a local newspaper. I wanna go out there and be something special. And i think deep down i would regret it for the rest of my life if i didn't.

Watching Laguna Beach reminded me of how most american people my age have to leave home at some point and go out on their own. Many are totally single, some are in relationships that they try to keep long distance, and a tiny tiny amount say with their sweetheart physically throughout college. How do the rest survive tho? The impression that i get is that they have a lot of fun despite not having a boy waiting at home for them, or at least the home they're living in while at college. So maybe i can survive without nat by my side. Maybe our relationship is strong enough to survive too.

I never wanted to be the kind of person who needs a boyfriend to feel better about themselves. I've seen that in old friends and it really wrecks who you are in the end. So i wanna be strong and be able to get out there on my own. I guess it just scares the shit out of me, thats the problem. But maybe its a good thing too.

Anyways, i finished one of the 7 things u wanted me to tag nad! Yes it took me this long to come up with 7 stupid things i wanna do before i die. And it took a few tries too cuz i'd have too many, then not enough, and so on and so forth.
7 things I want to do before I die:
1. Design a piece of fashion history
2. Write a memorable and never forgettable article
3. Ride the tube on a surf board
4. Work in america
5. Have a beautiful wedding and love the person i marry forever as if it was the first day we kissed
6. Do a million and one crazy things i never could have imagined doing
7. Change this list every 7 years (cuz i think its Billy Connelly who says you change your direction every 7 years) and include things i never knew existed when i first made it

I needa sleep, i've been running on too much adrenaline lately. So no more babbling otnight! Catch ya laters xoxo :-)

blog neglecter :-)

2005-11-25T23:18:00.000+11:00

Hey,

I have not written on this for ages! I kept writing posts of the 7 things tag nadalie wanted me to put up, but that's still a work in progress so stay tuned. I finished my exams, studied REALLY hard for them (no seriously i actually went to the library every day) and i'm really hoping i've done well. Next year i'll only be doing 3 subjects per semester so i figure i needa start making some money. Especially with nat now working full time and doing uni, i think maybe i'm starting to look a little lazy :-)
So, figured i will start a jewellery business. I started off with some, well i guess they were pretty ordinary designs, but yesterday i made a really nice necklace that everyone loved and i think i might get a big sale out of. So i'm gonna sell it around and see how i go. Its really original which is cool, like it's not something you see every day :-) Anywayz, i think i need help with the marketing tho, so i've enlisted the help of KJ, cuz she totally knows her stuff in that area. We had a business meeting today, it was so cool! :-)

Just went to pancake parlour for dinner with some friends, one being my shopping buddy Nadalie :-) She is such a bad influence on me! But she has a great eye for fashion :-) Had Ben's 21st which was good, although I got soooo drunk on champagne, thank god Bram looked after me cuz i really don't remember quite a bit of that night :-) Oh yeah, had a working bee for Tammy couple of weeks ago, which was awesome. We got so much done and everyone worked really hard. Will definitely have a top quality celebration/thankyou night the next time u guys are free!

I feel like things have changed so much in the past few weeks. I've started to change the direction i want my career to go in, i have changed the scope of my friends a bit, it's grown and moved some too. Like, America doesn't seem like the be all and end all anymore. And theres someone who has brought out a side of me i never knew existed, and its made me wonder about what i wanna do with my life.

Enough of all that tho, i'm really looking forward to summer, i have so many clothes ready to wear! And camping will be awesome, as will christmas and new years eve. Still not sure what i'm doing for that yet, i suggested frost bites to nat and he didn't like it too much :-) but will soon work something out!
Gotta go,
See ya xoxo

2005-11-07T20:31:00.000+11:00

Hey,

Here is a cool picture of me and nat at the Echo foundation ball. I made the butterfly head piece myself! (it required a butterfly from lincraft and a hair clip. BUt i'm still proud) And i made my jewellery! :-)

i"m such a nerd...

2005-10-24T21:07:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I actually went to uni for 5 hours today! thats like the longest i've ever been there! :-) It's only a week and a half till my first exam and I really wanna do well. So i FORCED myself up (it wasn't pretty) this morning and got my butt to the library. then i sat in front of a computer till nat rang and bugged me to come home for dinner. I figure if i put my social life on hold for a few weeks and do well it won't affect me to bad in the long run. So no more shopping for me! :-)

See ya xoxo

PS Loving the Pussycat dolls album! it's a little poppy, but has a good RnB feel.

happy 2 years :-)

2005-10-19T20:58:00.000+10:00

Heya,

It's 2 years for me and nat today! :-) I can't believe its been so long, how have i put up with him? ;-p nah just kidding, it really doesn't feel like it's been this long. I remember back in the beginning when we were just friends and ilke bet me a car wash that we would get together by the end of the year. I so didn't believe we would, i thought she was crazy! But now when i think back i can't believe i didn't think we'd get together. I mean, we found excuses to see each other every day, nat was actually studying cuz i said he should, and we were visiting mount dandenong on a very regular basis having heart to hearts. I still remember, the night we got together, he asked me if i wanted a fling, and i said, "Do u want it to be a fling?" and he answered back "I don't do flings." It was so sweet! Although he cringes everytime i remind him he said that. Or he argues that this is a fling, just a really long one. Its weird to think of us back then, compared to us now, and how much we've changed. I mean, i was totally mixed up then, and so was he i guess - he was getting over glandular and I didn't know where my life was going. I wasn't sure whether the uni course i had picked was right, and i was scared that i had made the wrong choice in who to call my friends. But now, geez, everything is so good. I have the best friends in the world, that i could never have even imagined would be this good, and my circle just keeps getting bigger and bigger. I'm ready to go overseas and have finally worked out how i'm gonna do it, and meanwhile nat has so many options for himself. I really never expected us to go this far, but i guess those are the things that are the best - the ones that you don't expect. I guess what I'm trying to say is, that sometimes you can really doubt yourself, but at the end of the day if you follow your instincts you end up coming out ok. And I'm so glad I did that, or god knows where I'd be now.

Anyway, enough of this serious stuff. Last day of uni tomorrow! Then holidays here we come! (well after exams of course) WOOHOO

See ya xoxo

ok i did it

2005-10-16T22:08:00.000+10:00

Halelujah! I did it, it's on the thing on the right... so yeah, check it out!

I finally got around to it :-)

2005-10-16T21:29:00.000+10:00

Hey,

so i eventually sat down and copied my ball photos to the internet. Haven't got them all yet, I might have gotten around to doing this but I'm still pretty lazy! Anyway you can check the rest out at my flickr site. Do i no how to get the flickr link onto here? AS IF! :-p will try my best tho.

Bubye xoxo

BEP rule!

2005-10-09T21:09:00.000+10:00

Hey there,

It's been an interesting and yet busy weekend! Friday night was funny as - it took us an hour or so driving around in circles to decide we'd go to the pool house we originally said we'd go. And then it took us 2 hours to play three games of pool. I mean, are we seriously that bad? Sat I spent at Chapel browsing the playboy shop and spending up big :-), then sat night got a little tipsy at Bridies. Thanks bram for lookin after me while nat took kj home- especially when i ended up packed in the middle of a mosh of some very large guys! :-) I'm tryin to keep a mental note of all the songs (I can remember) the band played so I can get them for my 21st. One was shimmer, one was living on a prayer and another holy grail.

After I finished my last post, I remembered that I forgot to mention how awesomely cool the black eyed peas concert was last monday! Yes, we had to betray melbournians abroad and cheer on with the sydney siders for the night, but they were soooo amazing. Fergie is absolutely gorgeous, and they were really funny as well as talented. One of the highlights was when they got us to hold our phones up, it looked like carols by candelight and was so pretty. Then they sang Where's the Love and even tho i am so sick of that song, it sounded fantastic. So, although it cost us a dime to fly up to sydney to see them, it was completely absolutely worth it. And hey, as a nice bonus we took around 5 boxes of krispy kremes home! (against the air hostesses wishes, she wanted them all for herself) :-)

You know what i did today? I made a necklace and a bracelet. Seems I'm getting the jewellry making bug - I bought some pretty crystals from chapel street and although they were a little pricey, i think i'll be going back for more sometime soon. I just wanna learn how to do it all!
Ok gotta go look up beads on ebay, not that i'd ever prob buy anything from there cuz i'm too scared my credit card will be stolen :-)
Bubye now xoxo

Good few weeks

2005-10-06T18:03:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I have been real busy lately, I've been tryin to keep a list of all the things that have happened. SO here's my list (warning: my memory is like a haze for some of it)

1. THE BALL WAS AWESOME :-) I had so much fun, And everyone looked gorgeous! Most of you already know of the disaster with the limo, and having too many people for our table (we're so very popular!!) but we got through it and got some good photos. I got a really nice professional one of me and nat, so i was happy :-) And you will see the photos soon (when i can be bothered putting them on). It was definitely a delish night :-)

2. Broome was also awesome! Beautiful sunsets, boogyboarding, sunbaking, wearing all my fave summer clothes.... what more could i ask for! Well, the hot weather to come to melbourne would be good... :-)

3. I am now offically one of 4 representatives of journalism at monash! And nadalie is another one! It's gonna be so much fun, we're gonna work o-week, and depending on how fired up we get to get people to join up, will there be a repeat of the episode which occurred on beach day last year??? Maybe...

4. I got a high distinction on my journo assignment! It wasn't just a high distinction, it was a very high distinction... Yay! :-)

Got exams coming up, then hopefully i will have a holiday job, then christmas, then CAMPING! lots of good stuff is happening, but we got lots to look forward to aswell.
Anywayz, gotta go get photos developed...
See ya xoxo

go t-shirt go!

2005-09-08T22:31:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I bought the coolset t shirt the other day, it says "I had a nightmare I was a brunette." It's so cool! And today at uni it attracted quite a lot of attention. I even got comments from my tutors! By next week I so have to get the "Paris for President" t shirt i saw some chick wearing the other day. It'll totally blow the mind of my american politics tutor (I am soooo not a geek! I swear!)

i FINALLY got all my accessories for the ball! :-D I had to go to chaddy 4 times in 4 days (well i didn't have to, but u get the jist) and i finally found the nicest necklace, although it didn't have the prettiest price in the world. Oh, and I got the charlie brown wedges, they're so cool! Can't wait to wear them in Broome! :-)

I can't believe the ball is in two weeks. I'm looking forward to it sooo much, but as per usual i think i'm mostly looking forward to getting lots of cool photos. And we're hopefully gonna get a limo, if i get around to organising it. I'm just a liitle scared my bright orange dress won't suit my spray tanned skin :-p

Nat went to a party on the weekend with his bball mates and they filled him in on who the winners of the awards were at the presentation night. AND HE WAS ONE OF THEM! :-D I was so proud of him - they only give out 4 awards so it was really cool. Considering the fact nat was disappointed with this season it's a pretty good effort i think. He tends to be really down on himself sometimes, like he thinks he's not that good at basketball, but he really has such a distorted view. Hopefully next season, playing in the ABA side, he'll be able to learn what he needs to to give him confidence and all that. Or maybe he could just wear a cool t shirt like i did today and that will fix all his probs! :-)

Anywayz, gotta go find limo services. And cool t shirts :-) Thats so gonna be my summer look!

See ya xoxo

go away you stupid cold!

2005-09-04T18:32:00.000+10:00

Hey,

I am so sick and tired of having a stuffy nose. And dry lips. And having to sleep sitting up cuz half my stupid nose blocks every time I lie down. Damn you cold, damn you to hell!

Anyway, lots of stuff to look forward to at the moment. The ball is in 2 weeks! yay! And i FINALLY found a piece of jewellry to wear. I never thought the day would come where i'd find a matching accessory to my bright orange dress :-) and then Broome is straight after! I'm sooo looking forward to it, its gonna be awesome to chill by the beach every day. And of course, to go shopping for diamonds and pearls :-p Hopefully i'm gonna be able to wear my charlie brown wedges, assuming i get them and stop stressing about the exhorbidant price of them! Also looking forward to black eyed peas, going to the travel agent tomorrow to book a hostel. I've never stayed in a hostel in Australia before, so it should be an experience.

Oh, and looking forward to a 2 year anniversairy over the next month! Can't believe i've put up with nat for so long :-) just kidding. Also am looking forward to summer and christmas and camping. Never been camping because i actually wanted to go, was always forced against my will by the school/parents. So that should be interesting also! :-)
Better go start my homework, i gotta million assingments due over the next week and the hardest is the stupid journalism one where we have to write a feature article. The tutor is very scary and attacking, and worse still he's gonna be marking the assignments. Not good!

See ya xoxo

Good times :-)

2005-08-18T22:16:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I realised I haven't written in quite a while, so thought i'd jot down a few random cool things goingg on at the moment. First, saturday night was AWESOME! That was one of the best parties i've been to, everyone just had a really good time. I've never seen bram so drunk, he actually danced! and so did rich :-) I think i might have a band at my 21st now, cuz that band at the city bridie's was so good, they played songs we all knew the words to. Well, most of the words anyway huh kj :-) Been looking for ball dresses for the marketing ball coming up, found 2 yesterday with nadalie that were pretty damn fine :-) I'm gonna take nat to see them on sat, and hpefully i'll come home with one! :-p Been trying to go to uni, although shopping and hanging out with friends seems to be my priority at the moment. I actually used my break tho today to listen to a lecture, so there is hope for me to do well yet! :-)

Nat had a recap of the season with his coach, and it looks like he'll play aba next season then go to div 2 college. It'll be good, cuz there are good players in the side, so it'll make for some entertaining basketball. It's so silly, nat's been complaining all season that he's had it with basketball, and 4 days after finishing the season, he's walking around like a lost puppy. I think he did like 100 sit ups tonight just so he felt like he did something. And as i write this he's yelling at that STUPID NBA live game :-p

I've been looking into where to go in America. Through a cleo article (who says the magazine is for ditzes?) I found its not as hard to get a visa as it used to be. There's one designed for Australians only, and u only need a job lined up to get it i think. I no, i'm being totally an optimist right now, but i think i should be able to get over there ok. After a string of cold days in good ol' Melbourne New York isn't looking so good. I think i might try for California, where i can go for runs on the beach every night with my doggy :-)

So everything is good at the moment. Although I am a little behind on my study. And the gym i work at is giving me problems, but hey, i've worked out a plan of attack for them and they aint gonna know what hit em when i come into work tomorrow arvo! :-D

See ya xoxo

OMG i hate computers

2005-07-30T19:56:00.000+10:00

I just wrote a delish post and it got deleted. I HATE COMPUTERS! :-<

Anyway, I got an apology from the gym where we were treated badly by the mean guy. So i don't hate all gym people anymore :-) Last night it was nat's surprise party! It was really good, especially the football injury show in the sports bar! Thanks to everyone who came, I no it was hard for a few of you after a long working week but it meant a lot that you were there. And I certianly wont forget the manly waitress or the lapdancing 40 year old! Good times :-)

After the party i took nat to the hotel for the weekend. It was so funny, he didn't believe we were staying here till I showed him the packed bags in the boot! Everything definitely surprised him - but i'm glad it's over now, i was ready to burst with what was going on! :-)

Today we spend the day shopping and eating mainly, as well as seeing the movie Monster in Law at Crown. I got the black eyed peas cd, an essential for their CONCERT IN SYDNEY! That's right, that's where me, dave kj and illy are going! It's giong to be soooooo delish :-)

Anyway, I'm gonna go watch a movie in the room while nat is at the basketball. He couldn't get out of this one, the coach looked right at him when he said he needed supporters there. But tomorrow we have a joint massage booked for first thing, so that should be really cool!

See ya xoxo

hate for gym people

2005-07-25T21:46:00.000+10:00

Hey,

I hate people who work in gyms. No, I haven't visited every gym in the world and I realise I am making a very large generalisation which has no evidence whatsoever to back it up OTHER than the actions of one person. But after my experience this afternoon with my good friend illy, I don't know if i can ever grace the door step of those pushy shouvy in your face-ey people again.

It all started while we were having a lovely afternoon drive through Dandenong. Illy innocently mentioned (although I think i'm gonna blame her for everything cuz she started it all with this mentioning) that she is trying to get healthy. I agreed with her, and suggested we go check out a gym which I will not name in the backstreets of dandenong. So off we went on our merry way to the gym. NOT to sign up on the spot and give all our personal information and lifesavings away, but JUST TO LOOK AROUND!!!! Anyway, so we went to the gym and were greeted by a guy who had an uncanny resemblence to Ilke, our turkish friend. He took us around and made lots of jokes, he had us believing he was such a nice guy. But NOOO, he was not the nice guy he claimed to be. Once we had looked around, he 'got down to business', and i swear to god (not that i believe in god) he like turned into the meaniest most horrible person i have ever met! The only way we could get out of there without calling the bank, giving the gym our account details and joining up was to promise we'd come back tomorrow. He was so bad, even illy and her head strong-ness could not stand up to his pushiness! And thats saying something! She was no help at all, going into fits of laughter out of, i dunno, shock that mr Ilke was being so mean when he had been so nice before.

So, apparently i'm getting a call at 9am tomorrow to come in at 10am, for a great deal (which we found snooping through his folder while he was off supposedly trying to talk his manager into it) that I just can't refuse! I think my phones stopped working. What's that? It's a new phone you say? Damn technology nowadays, never works when ya need it most!
Anywayz, we've decided the best option for now is NOT to join a gym. We're going to get fit all on our own, and we don't need anyone taking our hard earned money and pushing us around to do it.
See ya
xoxo (These kisses and hugs are not for anyone who works at a gym. I hate you all)

holidays, come back, please???

2005-07-17T20:36:00.000+10:00

Hey,

I can't believe holidays are over! I was so enjoying not doing anything :-( oh well, I got my new car!!! It's soooooo cool, it locks and unlocks without the key, it has a cool computer, it air conditions and heats the cup holder if you like, it has a tv, it has storage of my phone numbers in the navigation system, i mean, it has everything a car could have! AND as a result of my phone not being compatible, i had to get a new one! damn life is hard :-p so its been a good couple of days. And nat got home from his business trip on thursday, so i've been appreciating him being here more than ever. It's funny, before he went away i used to get so annoyed when he cuddled me in the morning, cuz it'd be so early and all i wanted to do was sleep. But when he wasn't there i really missed that morning cuddle :-p it's funny how it happens like that.
Anywayz, i gotta go, spending the night with nat watching our latest obsession, the growing collection of friends dvds we have :-).
See ya xoxo

birthdays rule! :-)

2005-07-03T15:08:00.000+10:00

Hey,
Well as you can see from the photos below my bday was lots of fun. nat actually drank and went TOTALLY hypo, which was quite the show for kj :-) KJ, bram, rich, dave and illy gave me a subscription to Cleo and Cosmo, and nat made me a bracelet and apparently has another surprise on it's way. We gave dave a cool essendon jacket, which he said was 'pimpin', and some chill pills cuz he's so damn argumentative sometimes! :-p After dinner and a few too many long island iced teas, we went to bridies for a while which was good, then to frosties. Didn't make it to transport, we figured bridies was so much closer it was silly to go all that way out for a pub. Me kj and illy got some cool sticker photo thingys done on chapel! :-) It was good to be with most of my friends at once, and the ones that couldn't make it I'm slowly getting around to catching up with. I guess when it's ur birthday you tend to realise who's there for u and who ur good friends are. So that was another reason why my bday was so good, cuz over the last couple of years i've kept it quiet, haven't really done much, cuz i didn't feel so confident about myself and the people around me. But hey, thats all gone now, and its really good to only be surrounded by people who really care back :-)

So right now I have around 2 weeks to relax and do nothing till i have to go to uni again. Well, not nothing, i can organise gym, do my journalism diploma, organise tammy's wedding, go in search of some cool skinny jeans, HOPEFULLY get my car, and visit the chocolate bar as much as humanly possible! :-)
Catch ya xoxox

me and kj trying to do a model pose

2005-07-03T15:06:00.000+10:00

me and kj
Originally uploaded by littlemiss-playgirl.

illy and drunk nat (yes, thats right, he actually drank!)

2005-07-03T15:04:00.000+10:00

nat and illy
Originally uploaded by littlemiss-playgirl.

me and nat

2005-07-03T15:02:00.001+10:00

me and nat
Originally uploaded by littlemiss-playgirl.

me and dave, the other birthday person :-)

2005-07-03T15:02:00.000+10:00

me and dave
Originally uploaded by littlemiss-playgirl.

my bday's coming!

2005-06-22T17:51:00.000+10:00

hey!
My bday is on Manday! Woohoo! Me and dave are organising our joit party as i write this. It's gonna be so awesome! we're going to tgif for dinner, then good ol' frosties to dance, then transport to do.. well, whatever it is u do at transport (it'll be my first time there). I never really had the ability to have a joint birthday before, so it's really cool that i can have one this year. And i'm looking forward to finding out what nat's getting me, what restaurant he's taking me to for my bday AND what my friends are getting me! :-) I'm not really expecting anything from my parent's, i mean, i did get a house and car and a whole lot of louis vuitton bags from dad (they are sooo cool!). But the other day when i went to the car mum ran around frantically saying i couldn't come in the house cuz they were hiding something. Looking forward to finding out what that was too! :-)
Only 5 days till my bday :-)
See ya xoxo

my puppy rules :)

2005-06-20T23:07:00.000+10:00

hey!

I got a puppy today! Her name is lucy, she is soooo totally the most gorgeous thing you ever saw! and nat's looking after her right now. it's sooo cute, he calls himself a dad and me mum. He rang his mum and told her she was a grandma - she nearly freaked! It's so cool now tho, like when nat leaves me alone in the house in the morning i'll have someone to keep me company, some life in the house. And nat will have someone to keep him company on runs (as if i would go!) she's just so cute and sweet and has the best personality ever. I"m currently in love! :-)
See ya xoxo

wedding fever :-)

2005-06-14T19:01:00.000+10:00

Hey,

I got home and to suddenly realise i forgot my house keys. so now i'm stuck in mum's house till nat gets home from training. I would normally be very scared cuz my study notes are in my house and my exam is at 9:30am tomorrow, but hey, i know all the stuff anyway, i think :-)
Today was soooo awesome, my housekeeper is engaged but she hasn't really done much about the wedding yet. So i bought her a wedding magazine so we could gush over all the pretty dresses etc. etc. Well, i eneded up spending the whole day talking to her about her wedding! I've decided to take the role as wedding planner, and on monday we're gonna go shopping for dresses, makeup and stationary. I'm so excited!!! Weddings are like the best thing in the whole world!
We spent the majority of the day trying to choose a 'first dance' song. The one at my wedding is gonna be savage garden, truly madly deeply. Tammy wanted this 80s song i have never heard of, but when she heard the love songs cd nat gave me, we couldn't choose between any of them. SO we just played them all, and went 'ooohh' and 'aahhh' at all of them! I'm not usually so soppy about this stuff, but it was so much fun talking about wedding themes and all the exta things involved. I wanna fast forward to when i get married, it'll be soo much fun to organise!
Until then tho, i can live viceriously through tammy. Weddings are the coolest things ever!
See ya xoxo

1 down, 2 to go

2005-06-08T13:19:00.000+10:00

Hey,

I finished my journalism exam today. Not really sure how i went, i mean, i thought i did badly on my last assignment and i got a high distinction for it, so i'm not gonna make any assumptions. I just want the other 2 to be over with, i hate exams sooo much, and even tho these ones are pretty easy in comparison with last year, they still suck. :-p
I wanna get them done too cuz then i can have no stresses for a month or so. I can finish my journalismm diploma, paint my sis's room, write some aritcles that have been on my mind, and orgainse my work experience for Tammy's dad. All this stuff keeps getting put in the back of my mind when exams are happening. Oh yeah! I'm gonna prob join a gym. I'm thinking the keysborough gym, cuz its so close, plus it has girls-only times so i don't have to put up with the sleaze factor. Last time i joined the oasis gym, some guy made a point of talking to me every 5 minutes or so. He'd just follow me around, it was so gross! He was like 50! eeewwww :-S i never wanted to be one of those girls who went to a girls only gym, i thought it meant you were scared of guys. But i get it now, totally get it.
Anyway, i gotta go watch my taped America's Next Top Model. I'm obsessed with that show!
See ya xoxo
PS only like a few weeks till my bday! :-D

go internet go!

2005-06-04T19:56:00.000+10:00

Heya,

I got the internet! It's soo cool! No more timing out, no more running around the house with my laptop to try get the most signal possible. It's like the last thing we needed to do. Now I can just work on getting heaps of pictures up. A pretty fun job i think! :-)
This next month is gonna be so busy. My bday's coming up, and thats always a big thing, spesh cuz my sister's bday is 3 days before. I'm not getting any presents from my p's tho! Not that i'm complaining, i think a bmw and house is pretty good. It's better than pretty good, and I still needa pinch myself on a regular basis. So there's all that, exams, more family and friend's bdays, i just can't wait for the holidays in a massive way. It's funny, uni students are so damn lazy, we do hardly anything during the semester and yet we look to holidays like nothing else! :-p
Nat's still sick so no goin to the basketball at the moment. I watched an NBA game the other day and got really into it, although the Suns lost to my dismay. I'm gonna miss the AFL big time when i go to america, but at least i'll be able to put up with a replacement while i'm over there. I mean, i hate baseball, it's the most boring game ever, and gridion and keepings off seem very much the same to me. And, although i prefer some aspects of AFL to basketball, like i said, it will do to provide me with a good competitive sport.
Anwyay, i gotta go get ready to get ready to go out. We put our new desk together today! I think i'm obsessed with buying furnitiure. How sad is that? :-P
See ya xoxox

me and nat

2005-06-01T18:43:00.000+10:00

CIMG2054
Originally uploaded by littlemiss-playgirl.

kj's house warming

2005-05-22T19:23:00.000+10:00

me kj and bram
Originally uploaded by littlemiss-playgirl.

Fun times! Me and kj felt like putting interesting hats on. One too many jelly shots for me at that point! :S

grrrr

2005-05-05T18:13:00.000+10:00

hey,
I just lost the post i was writing. And i can't even blame the bloody computer! In my fantastic blondess, i quit the internet progran, thinking i was doing this in a word document. And somehow I got through high school :-S
Let's see, i was writing about how the house was all done. Everything but towel racks and a toilet paper holder :-) Been to the footy a bit lately, I'm so happy, I don't care that we're near the bottom cuz we beat collingwood and thats all that matters ;-) u no how theres that one footy team you don't like cuz you know a real loser who goes for them? Well, that team is collingwood for me. And beating them every year just makes me feel good in ways i can't describe :-D
Saw wite noise and amityville, amityville was the scariest movie ever!!! White noise wasn't that good but. Oh, and nat's getting heaps of court time at bball, he's playing really well, which is AWESOME :-) America here we come!
Working hard at uni, I'm hoping to get good marks, but as per usual it's very difficult trying to juggle friends and homework. Last week I had an oral presentation, but still found time to go to the footy and bridies :-) Although my mum's car was broken into while I was there, so I wasn't too happy bout that, especially when me and nat's ipod was stolen. But it didn't reck a good night, bram actually asked the hot lead singer for an autograph for me, I have never been so embarrassed! The guy wrote me a note saying "Hi, you're sooooo lazy" Cuz apparently i was too lazy to get it myself. Ah, dude, I didn't want your autograph! I can't perve on your autograph! Just stand there and look good thankyou, thats all i need :-)
Anyway gotta go, dad's off to china so we're going out for dinner. See ya!
xoxo

We're finally in!

2005-04-18T10:21:00.000+10:00

Hey,

We've finally moved in. Thats right, after so many posts of 'soon we'll get our house', and, 'i can't wait to get in there', it's all finally done. Most of you have already visited, so i won't write too much about how awesome our house is, but the thing i am missing is the internet. We don't get it until mid may!!! Luckily my last assignment for a while was due today, and i've just nearly finished. So i'm pretty sure these blog entries are gonna get much less frequent for a while.

Nat played really well in his game yesterday; he got double doubles (10 rebounds, 10 points. It sounded like a meaningless tounge twister to me too). I think his problem has lately been that he takes a while to ease into the game and start leading the team. When his coach puts him on and takes him off continually, this is very difficult for him to do. It's funny, i came to this conclusion on my own, and apparently his dad has been telling him this for ages. I'm glad Nat's getting better at bball tho, cuz it makes him happy. And thats good :-)

Oh, me and bram are gonna start a mixed indoor soccer team! Despite what everyone tells me, i think i've put on a little weight recently, and i know thats prob because of my lack of physical excercise. So i can have fun with my friends and get fit at the same time this way! I'm just hoping we don't go to a club where everyone takes it really seriously. If worst comes to worst, we're gonna have a four on four match on a regular basis, me, illy, kj and ilke versus the guys. Personally, if i were a guy, i'd be way more scared of ilke than illy! Although some would disagree with me :-p Anywayz, gotta go buy more kitchen things. I'm gonna get some photo frames too to stick up, that should be fun :-)

See ya xoxo

R.I.P snoopy

2005-04-10T21:05:00.000+10:00

Hey,

My dog Snoopy died this morning. Mum and dad woke us at 4am, to tell us they were taking her to an emergency vet. Nat asked me if i thought she'd be ok, and i just assumed she would be. I mean, she wasn't sick. But at 6am, mum came home crying saying she was gone. Apparently her tummy had ruptured or something. I was a little shocked, but then i cried a bit. It's so sad, she was such a character. When you drove up the drive way, she had absolutely no road sense, and so she'd just come to the front of the car and stare at you. You couldn't move, or else you'd run her over, and on many occasions we had to back out and go to the parking area another way. Then when you opened the car door, she'd be right there, ready for a pat, with a big smile on her face. That was another cool thing about her; she actually smiled at you, like her teeth on the sides of her mouth would show, she'd squint her eyes, and her tail would wag like there was no tomorrow. Everyone thought it was so funny how she'd act like a cripple when she walked around, but as soon as there was food involved she'd suddenly be bolting at you. I guess i was just so used to having her around, it's so weird now that she's not wandering around outside, or lying by the door in her kennel. When there were thunder storms she'd really freak, and we'd always let her in. It was so cute, she'd wag her tail furiously, and mum could never get to sleep cuz there'd be this 'thump thump' sound all night long. And whenever mum got mad at her she'd just smile at her; and you could never stay mad at snoopy when she smiled at you.
I'm gonna miss her. I loved her heaps, and i never really imagined my life without her there. It sucks how animals don't get to live for very long. I wish she could have been around for so much longer. Things really are gonna be sadder without her.

blog blog blog blog blog etc....

2005-04-06T20:00:00.000+10:00

Hey,

I spent the day today searching for info on blogs for my new media assignment. There's like a total overload on info for blogs! I mean, everyone seems to have an opinion on them. Did you know there are awards for the most lame, boring blogs out there? And that people actually write their blogs in the third person? I guess because i've never come across a blog written in the third person, it seems a little weird to me. But i guess a good writer could make it sound good. Let me demonstrate why i think it would sound silly with an exmaple from my own writing talents :-S :

"Vanessa found out today that her assignment was going to be a lot harder than she'd planned. She tried her hardest to get what the hell the teacher was going on about, but everytime the teacher said one thing that made sense to her, the teacher would say another thing that would make the assignment even more confusing. So, vanessa decided that it was no longer likely that she'd get it done by the time she moved out, which was her goal. But, halelujah! When she arrived home her mum told her the house wouldn't be ready until 5 days away. She knew she should be sad about it not being ready, but that made the assignment seem a lot more doable for some reason."

Ok, i'm done sounding like an idiot now, i'm sure anyone could do better at that third person thing than me. I sound like i'm writing a children's book!

Anywayz, another thing that was weird was the amount of backlash about 'boring' blogs. Apparently if you talk about day to day stuff, you're wasting precious world wide web space and you're just an attention seeker stroking your ego. That freaked me out - i mean, i talk about day to day stuff! I talk about my shopping, and my boyfriend, and my classes! Does that mean that people are endlessly clicking onto my blog randomly and tsk tsking as they get rid of it from their screen as quickly as posible? :-S Man, this whole blog thing is so like real life. You have the people who catch on to a fun thing that's been made cool, like me, and then you have the 'elitest' bloggers, the ones who claim to have been there before blogs were cool, and who supposedly know exactly what a good blog entails. Like the confromists and non comformists. And in the words of the non conformists on South Park, if you don't drink coffee, you can't be a non-conformist. Ha, go figure :-)
See ya xoxo

house dilemmas

2005-04-05T16:10:00.000+10:00

Hey,
Just found out some awesome news - my good friend pearly is coming down from canberra, and she might be able to come to our house warming! AND she's probably coming to my little black dress comp too!! So that should be really good.
Had to go back to uni yesterday... It's enjoyable for the social side, but not liking the getting up early part too much. Didn't go to the 8am lecture (as if i would!) and spent luch catching up with a friend i hadn't seen in a while. That was good, especially because seeing this friend motivated me to go to my lecture beforehand! :-)
KJ's just moved to Dingley, so it'll be easy to give her lifts to uni and stuff. It's so cool, now she's like 10 minutes away! I can't wait to see her new house. It's always so much fun moving out, well people prob disagree with me, but i like the whole new start thing. Like, there's no clutter, for the time being anyway. And we're all going to see the bombers play on anzac day, which should be fun(that's if we win)! I know our boys haven't had the best start to the year, but we really should beat collingwood, i mean, theres no bucks and they're the classic one man team. If we lose i'll be eternally embarrassed. :-S Anyway, gotta go continue on my homework, i'm so gonna have it done by the end of the week and be totally organised! Well, i hope so anyway....
See ya xoxo

angry rich

2005-04-01T09:30:00.000+10:00

angry rich

looks like you didn't delete all those bad photos of yourself rich, hee hee :-p

bram

2005-03-31T20:34:00.000+10:00

bram

hey dude, i found the pic! It just appeared on my camera two secs ago. Weird huh... anyway, now we don't have to recreate the scene! haha :-D

nostalgia is a killer

2005-03-31T17:11:00.000+10:00

Heya,

Started packing my stuff today for the new house. I thought i oughta get a head start. I can't believe my room isn't gonna be my room anymore. Like, at the end of next week, it will be sarah's, and it will have everything of hers in it. I really grew up in that place. I'm one of those people who really values their room; it's like my own special place that no one else can change. Well, i guess that changed when nat came, but it still feels special. And now it's like we're starting all over again, creating all these new memories form scratch. It's very exciting, but at the same time it feels weird, like a big change is about to happen. Anyway, i'll stop babbling, we ordered nat's car today! Very excited :-) it's gonna be better than my car! until i get the beama at least :-) and nat's got a new job! He's a sales rep for dad's importing company. He's working full time, but that means i don't really have to work: i can just concentrate on uni. And that's what nat wants too, cuz he wants me to go after the journalism dream i have. So everything is really good. And now i have a house warming party to organise :-)

See ya xoxo

zzzzzz

2005-03-29T21:41:00.000+10:00

Hey,
jeez i'm tired. i went and had a facial today, and i actually fell asleep on the table! Just hoping right now i didn't snore, that would have been very embarrassing :-S Oh, i finished my crime media assignment today! So happy! Now i just have the stupid pointless journalism one to go and then i can relax for a week or two! I don't get it, if even our lecturer thinks the journalism assignment is stupid, why do we have to do it? Doesn't make any sense. Anyway, on another note, i have decided to go to the anzac footy game, cuz there's no way we'll get beaten by collingwood. They totally suck, and their only good player is injured! I just know we're gonna win. I've even got a geunsey to wear to the match. Should be fun, just gotta get seats :-) Anywayz, gotta go reference my essay, why do there have to be such tough laws on plaigarism? See ya xoxo

Happy easter everyone! :-)

2005-03-27T18:05:00.000+10:00

Heya,

Started the morning as all my morning's seem to have been lately: I woke up to nat cuddling me, so sweet :-) He gave me a ring for easter by the way, it's so shiny! Very cool. We went and saw what the easter bunny had brought us and my little sister, and gave our presents out. Then we had to go to Nat's mum's church. Being the unreligious person i am, this wasn't the greatest experience of my life, but it was nice because nat's whole family was together for it. It's always so nice to see when a whole family gets along so well and stuff. We had to leave early for lunch with my family, which, although they were so late we started ordering without them, was really good too. Then i actually started planning my crime media essay! I couldn't believe it, i am actually organised for once! The essay's not due for anohter 2 weeks, and i'm sooo gonna get it done by then. I'm just not looking foward to doing the other assignments, they're nowhere near as interesting as this one (expect the new media one: It's on blogs! Ha! i know that in and out)

The stupid people building our house are contracted to finish it tomorrow, and there's still quite a bit to do. It's really getting ridiculous now, i mean, they told us it would definitely be ready by now. But oh well, now they can start paying us for the overtime they're doing, so hopefully they'll actually finish it finally! Nat also picked his car yesterday, a holden sv6, and we're going in tomorrow if it's open to buy the car. It sucks, his car will be more comfy than mine! Well, until we got my beamer at least. Then we'll be fighting over who's gonna drive my car! :-)
Anyway gotta go to nat's for dinner. Have a good easter, see ya xoxo

what can i complain about?

2005-03-24T19:10:00.000+11:00

hey,

I had a really bad day today. Last night nat had a terrible game, although he won, the guys they played were horrible. Then today, I had a big fight with both my mum and dad, as most people my age still living at home do, and then i decided to take it all out on nat. But, being the beautiful boyfriend he is, he put up with my yelling and screaming and gave me a big cuddle when i finally stopped. So anyway, i decided to make this entry about 10 things i have to be happy about, because i think that will make me feel heaps better.
1. I have nat, and he loves and accepts every part of me, the good and the bad. It's our year and a half anniversairy in a few weeks, and he told me he's gonna organise everything for the special night. All i have to do is pack some overnight things. How sweet :-)
2. I'm going to Kylie in May with my cuz Kym, we went to kylie when i was 4 and now its so cool cuz we're going together again! And she's a kylie fan too, they're hard to find man :-)
3. Nat now has his licence! He got 99, so he only got 1 less than me! And now i can become an eternal passenger! Yay :-)
4. I get to go to monash. I feel so much more important than i did at deakin, like, everyone thinks its such a good uni. And my journalism lecturer is cool, and my friends are cool too! I was reminded of how good monash is when i got online today cuz i couldn't find my class. I have a timetable that is always updated right on the front of my portal! Deakin never did that! :-)
5. We're only a week (by contract, this won't be dragged out) from moving out! Woohoo! I'm so looking foward to it, and so is nat. It will be like our little place that we can both go to and just feel comfortable and safe form the world, like a massive room really :-)
6. I'm going to ilke's uncles factory on wednesday with kj!!! Gonna be awesome, will pick up some great buys. And then we're going little black dress shopping for the little black dress comp! :-)
7. My bday is not too far away, and this year i'm having a joint one with dave! It's gonna be heaps of fun, hopefully i'll be able to remember all of it! (dave, you have to help me with this one, seeings as you don't drink and all)
8. This week i get a whole week off uni! Sleep ins here i come!
9. Nat bought me flowers the other day! so sweet, and they're roses, my favourite :-)
10. Easter is coming, my favourite holiday. What better holiday is there than the one where the main objectve is to eat chocolate???

Anywayz, gotta go, Na's taking me for a drive when he gets home from training :-) I definitely feel cheered up now. Thanks blog! :-)
xoxo

work experience over now, back to normal life.

2005-03-20T16:03:00.000+11:00

Heya,

It's all finally over with, and it was so good to get home on friday night. Spent Saturday organising illy's present, and found the most georgous bags, which are affordable (unlike louis vuitton)! I wanna get guess bags now, i bought the going out bag, and soon i'm gonna get the everday bag. They are so cool! :-) Went to illy's party at frostie's last night, unfortunately there were a few people (guess who?) who tried to wreck our fun (unsuccessfully of course). At one stage one of the girls (if you can call her that) told illy she owed them big time for them coming to her party. As if! They owe her cuz obviously they're pretty lifeless and lonerish, coming as a little foursome with no guy company, and sitting around looking like losers. The fact they got invited to her party was a bloody favour! :-) It's funny how sometimes a big ego can squash a good heart, and i think one of those girls (we'll call her dinosaur for her interesting hairstyle) got that disease big time. They left cuz they 'had something better on elsewhere' (prob were really going home but anyway), and like nat said, he said exactly the same thing when he dumped the dinosaur girl for me!

But anyway, thats the last i'll ever mention of them. Thank god illy saw the light last night and has decided to cut all contact with them. Nat told me last night he was gonna write me a thankyou card for getting him out of that group. But it's all over now, we never have to be anywhere near them, and to tell you the truth, they're just a good laugh to us now anyway, and an extra thankyou to kj and ilke for accepting me out of their group and showing me real friendship :-)

Meanwhile, i entered some little black dress competition, so apparently i have to model at frosties one night in, obviously, a little black dress, and that will be scary. Nat's gonna invite all his mates, my cousin's coming, my uni friends had better come, and illy and kj and the boys will try make it. It should be fun, and like i keep telling myself, it can't be as bad as the topless run down the pier on beach day! :-)

Anywayz, i gotta go, me and nat are choosing furniture. Only a week until our house is finished! Life is good :-)

See ya xoxo

2 days to go!

2005-03-16T20:08:00.000+11:00

Heya,

I'm so glad i have this blog, i didn't really take anything to do other than homework, and after i've finished at work homework is the last thing i wanna do. So really thank god for this laptop! :-) I had an alright day, transcribed another interview, worked in the fashion department for most of the time. I was just talking to nat, and i think the only thing that makes this week hardly bareable is him not being here. He said he's never not coming with me again :-) and he's going shopping with illy tomorrow, he said he's gonna get me a present! How sweet :-) thinks just aren't the same without nat here, i mean, everything seems so much more boring and fruitless. It just seems kinda dull. But hey, only two more days, and next time i do this sort of thing, me and nat are both gonna make it so we can be together. We've certainly learnt our lesson! :-)
I kept today tho how i'd really like to work for one of these style magazines. The more i sit at that lifestyle editor's desk, the more i wanna be in that position! So i gotta work out how to get there. I think going to America will help me, because it will put flexibility on my resume, as well as motivation and all that stuff. I just gotta get my work out there...
See ya xoxo

3 days to go! :-)

2005-03-15T17:52:00.000+11:00

Heya,

Well, today wasn't as bad as yesterday. I mostly listened to recorded interviews, and typed them into the computer. I listened to an interview with an author, and that was cool, she made it seem a little more possible to be a writer. And then I did one for Christine Anu, she seems like a nice person, and I did one for a lecturer on ADHD, cuz they're writing an article about adults taking ADHD for the wrong reasons and the effects of it. It's gonna be so cool, when i get the magazines, all the quotes were written by me! :-) And hopefully tomorrow i'll be working out the wine page with the girl who does it, so i get to have imput into that too! :-) I missed nat at lunch, but hey, got lots of sweet messages form him, which i wasn't expecting, so i'm gonna have to be happy with that :-) I was thinking though, when i was sitting at the lifestyle editor's desk, i would really like to work for one of those style magazines. like, some would say it's shallow journalism, but often i think women's issues are very important, and yes there are the trivial pieces like what's in for the minute and stuff, but there are also good articles, like the ones i transcribed today. Ones about women achieving big things, and ways of making women more motivated and encouraging them to achieve their dreams. I think there is still quite an existent gender gap around me and many other women, and these magazines aim to close that gap. I like that notion. So hey, maybe i will be the fashion girl for Allure or Glamour magazine! I just have to figure out how to get into the business in America :-)
See ya xoxo looking forward to going home!!! :-D

yay! i can write :-)

2005-03-14T21:13:00.000+11:00

Hey,

I got internet connection on my laptop! yay :-)
Today was my first day of working experience at the acp magazine group, specifically Madison Magazine. It was hell, but hey, i expected as much. At one stage i was adding up one of the writer's phone bill costs fro her. Sounds like fun, huh? I got to work with fashion for a while tho, and saw some pretty nice clothes. If only my job was to try them on and pick which ones i wanna take home with me :-) oh, and i actually wrote a receipt for a pair of louis vuitton shoes! I'm getting closer and cloder to that bag i long for :-)
I had such a bad day all round really. I mean, i knew the work experience would be bad, the reason i'm doing it is for my resume, but i wasn't expecting to be so tired after just one day. It turns out it's a 25 minute walk to my work! God help me :-S And nat went home tonight, cuz he has too many basketball commitments to stay up here. I actually wasn't expecting it to be so hard to say good bye, but when it actually came to him leaving, it was really really hard. I know i'm gonna see him in 4 days, but i actually cried when i left him at the airport! Can you believe that? Man i needa control my emotions. I guess i'm just tired, and it was so nice to meet up with him at lunch and to be picked up by him after work. I just keep telling myself, it's only 3 more nights after this one that we have to spend apart. And it's only 4 more days i have to get up early and do pointless errands and work 8 stupid long boring hours :-)
I got a message form my uni friend Daniel today, wishing me luck this week and saying we have to catch up soon. Its funny, i hardly know the guy, but he's really shown me that he's a good person, well, good enough to listen to whats going on in my life anyway. It's not often you find friends like that. And it was nice of him :-) again, i am definitely glad i went to monash. The people that i'm meeting there are so nice, everything is turning out perfect. Well, it will be when i get to melbourne airport on friday and am in nats arms again :-)
See ya xoxo

P.S. Plan for saturday: Sleep Sleep Sleep! (and then go to illy's bday) zzzzzz

can u ever be sure of anything?

2005-03-10T22:26:00.000+11:00

Hey,

I have noticed that recently my blog seems to have evolved from simple chatter to a bit of a deeper thing. I guess I'm finding it quite good to get certain stuff off my chest, it makes me feel better for some strange reason. But anyway, back to whatever it was i was going to make this entry about :-)
I was thinking about my plan for the next two years: I finish my degree, hopefully get a good mark, then get into an american internship and jetset off with nat to achieve both our dreams. I wonder whether it will happen or not, and whether its even possible. It's funny tho, some people would find this little plan of mine completely rediculous. Others, however, would find it so wonderful, because for some reason me and nat seem to prove to them that love is still possible and all that stuff. Illy mentioned that one of her friends felt that way today. I sometimes feel unsure of whether to give myself completely to nat, because i wonder if in a month he won't be here. Things can change so so quickly, let alone feelings people have. And if i didn't have him here, what would my plan be? would it be the same minus having to accomodate for his needs? Most likely not. I think i would be overseas now, because i would have wanted something new and exciting to fulfill my life. Thats if i didn't choose to take a totally different path with a different guy. And nat, where would he be? He could still be with his ex for all we know. He could have never touched a basketball again. He tells me he could never do the things he wants to without me, but i wonder, if the situation where completely different, and i was never there, would he have done what he wanted to do?
Its so weird thinking about possibilities of the past and present, let alone the future. What if he brakes his leg tomorrow? What if when i go to work experience they offer me a job that would make all of my dreams come true? "What if" is so fascinating to think about, because in everything we do, there is always a million different things we could have done that would lead to a million different new possibilities. And the way you look at others is so unsure too. Like, when i was working tonight, there was the most georgous old couple that seemed so happy. But maybe they weren't really, and theres something complex going on that i could never imagine. Maybe he was filthy rich and she was only with him for his money. Who knows? And others view nat and me as a happy couple, or a unhappy couple, they choose whatever suits thier mood i guess.
I guess, the point of this entry, is that i realised how much possibility there is to question life today. I imagined if i had have stayed friends with certain people, gone to certain places, and wondered who i could be now. What if nat and me hadn't hang out on the day of his ex's bday and seen how we got along? and what if i hadn't have felt sick and stayed at his house till late after the drive in a week later? I guess thats why i'll make a good journalist, because i want to find all the answers to every question in life :-) but, i guess thats the fun in it, that those big questions can never be answered, not in this lifetime anyway. There's two things in life you can be sure of - you'll pay taxes and you'll die. I think that leaves a hell of a lot of possibility for strange and unexplainable things to happen.
See ya xoxo

Is there anything else?

2005-03-08T21:13:00.000+11:00

Hey,

Had the day off uni today, so i went to the doctor's for a girly test that was very uncomforting :-S, and therefore, as everyone does in the doctors surgery while they're waiting for their always-late doctor, I caught up on all the latest gossip magazines. Do they actually write any of their own articles, or do the pr people for the products just write it? In one of the magazines i was reading, there was a section on women's underwear that was sponsored by Target. All the bras and stuff were from target. Now i'm not a snob or anything, but i've tried target bras before, and they've without fail fallen apart. However, bras like calvin klein, kookai, elle, and kylie of course, give me all the love and support i want in a bra. Why would a magazine that claims to know fashion tell me to buy only the bras i no fall apart? There is a big conspiracy here people, don't buy into it. Magazines use pr's descriptions of products and disguise it as their own articles, as if they were the ones who tried the bras. I no thats not the case! Anyway, gotta go,
See ya xoxo

more thoughts.

2005-03-07T18:21:00.000+11:00

Heya,

I have been thinking about this whole couples don't work when both want to be successful thing. I use examples to make me feel that it shouldn't technically work between me and nat, but now i've decided stuff it. If i listened to other people in the first place, nat and i wouldn't be together. And hey, all i need, as illy said, to make my dreams come true is my laptop. So what if nat has to do this particular thing thats gonna collide with my thing? Relationships are always hard, especially the most beautiful ones. And it will work out, because our love for each other is enough.
I guess sometimes i feel like it isn't. But hey, we all doubt ourselves and those around us every now and again. Often when something is really good we doubt it even more, because we're scared it will go away and we want to prepare oursleves for it. I think i feel like that alot. The more distance you create, the better it will be when they leave you. But screw that. I wanna be in this, and if i get hurt, so be it. At least i'll know i tried.
See ya xoxo

couples and their successes.

2005-03-05T23:06:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

I've had a good couple of days, but lately i have been thinking about me and nat and what we want with our lives. You see, he and i have been having some real problems getting our lives to work with one another. He needs me to do stuff for his basketball, and i need him to come to my work experience for a night in Sydney. We both have really important stuff on, but the problem is we can't fit two important things into one time - we really have to pick one, the other, or go our seperate ways. Nat made the point yesterday that the problem is, we both have really big dreams and ambitions, and we're both having to do it alone rather than having someone completely behind us and being like, our second support person. I don't get how it can be so difficult for two people to both want big things out of life and to also make a relationship work. But I guess the proof is against me. I read an article about Mathew Lloyd and his wife in the paper a while ago, and he pointed out how good she was for sacrificing her goals of being a lawyer to help him achieve his dream. He had a belief that only one person in the relationship can really be successful, as the successful one needs the support of the other one in the home life to do it. I thought he was such a bastard for doing that - i mean, how selfish could you be to leave your partner feeling as though if it weren't for you, maybe they could have achieved more? But maybe i was wrong in making that judgment.

Nat's auntie and uncle split up a long time ago, and it was a very angry and complicated break up. Nats dad says that part of the problem was that both of them had great ambitions, and therefore they never had time for a relationship- there was no one there to look after the kids, organise the dinner, etc. So in the end, they had to split up. I feel like these examples way me down a little. I know everyone's different, and nat and me have a fantastic chance of making our relationship work despite our needs to succeed, but it seems the odds are against us. I mean, when you look at the big sports stars out there playing in the NBA and NBL, there's usually a wife supporting him every step of the way. And sure i will support him completely, but if i'm not there physically, if i'm too busy trying to make my dreams happen too, is my support really enough? Or is his support of me really enough?

I guess only time will tell if we will make it work or not. I get annoyed at his stupid basketball schedule because things will change at the last minute all the time, and he will get annoyed at the things i have to do, like needing to go out and review a club or something, on a night he planned to stay at home with me. But hey, at the end of the night we still go to sleep telling each other how much we love and care for each other over and over again, so really, maybe this is no were near as difficult as i sometimes feel it is. Maybe we just have to learn a little sacrifice for one another, and occasionally compromise with what we want to do for ourselves and each other. Like i said, only time will tell.
See ya xoxo

18 random things about me :-)

2005-03-02T13:43:00.000+11:00

1. I had a rabbit when i was little called thumper, and he lived to like, 10 years of age. Thats unheard of in a rabbit!

2. one of my favourite things to do in the world is sleep in on a rainy day, and wake up to listen to the drops falling on our tin roof :-)

3. It takes about one shot and a frost bites slushy to get me drunk off my head!

4. I love reading the paper in the morning when i have my brekky :-) especially on a thursday and a sunday, cuz of Hit magazine and the cool advice column in the lifestyle section!

5. Normally my favourite singers are the ones i hate to begin with, but they slowly grow on me and then i love them. I'm off to get the 50 cent cd when it comes out! And i hated him when i first heard him!

6. My favourite cordial and any type of lolly is red. If there are no red lollies or cordial left, i have to settle for orange :-(

7. My name means butterfly, and i think that represents me well, because butterflies are like the dream come true for the catapillars. When the catapillar finally becomes a butterfly it can achieve all that it dreams of, it can fly. I hope i can do that too someday :-)

8. I find head bands very annoying, i feel like they push my head together, and they give me headaches.

9. I care a lot about current afffairs, and what's going on in the world. I think one of the best things we can do for the world is be informed, so we can do something about the future, and not let history repeat itself.

10. I absolutely love Kylie! I think she is like, the greatest singer ever! Me and my cuz are going to her concert in May, its gonna be awesome!

11. The future, and having to leave uni and enter the real world, scares me in a way.

12. I don't believe in god, and i love to argue with religious people about his existence.

13. One of my many goals for this year is to go swimming with the dolphins at seaworld! I did it when i was younger, and i wanna do it again cuz it was so much fun.

14. I am obsessed with the Simpsons. Say any line from that show and i'll know who said it, why they said it, and what other funny bits in that episode were.

15. One of the things i like about my friends is that they are loyal. I think thats one of the most important qualities to have in a friend, and i learnt that the hard way.

16. I love Nat! :-)

17. My lil sis is annoying, but i love her :-)

18. You know what my favourite saying is? I only heard it for the first time the other week. "Nothings out of reach if you've got long arms" (the calcium kid). It's so random, i think it can certainly top this list off well :-) I'll work out exactly what it means someday!

I am so tired...

2005-02-28T17:34:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

I had to be up at 6am for uni today. It was so cold (I no its hot now but it was cold at 6am!) that i decided not to catch the train to uni, but rather to drive in the warm heater air. It was a stressful trip, although i got there 10 minutes early so i was happy. :-) Uni was good tho, i got to meet lots of people, see familiar faces from beach day, and there wasn't a break were i didn't have heaps of mates to hang out with. I dunno how i put up with deakin for so long!!! We joined some clubs, got offered a lot of alcohol, and tried to work out exactly where all our classes were. I had my first crime media tute as well, and i dunno if i'm gonna like it. Everyone in there is 3rd year! Oh well, at least at the end of this year i'll be able to get a double major. Oh, and i decided i'm gonna study american politics next semester so i can be in with a good chance for an internship in america. If i understand their system, i'll be a lot better at reporting it :-)

We've got the old school party on thursday night, not sure whether i'm gonna dress up, but it should be fun either way. And its my last week at Keiths probably! Wow, everything i did last year has totally changed this year. It's like a whole new me has come out in the last month. But i like all this change, its as good as a holiday really :-) Anyway, i'm off to catch up on lost sleep...zzzzz
See ya xoxo

P.S. two weeks till i go on my work experience with Madison Magazine! Yay! :-)

uni is the best ever!

2005-02-26T23:17:00.000+11:00

Heya,

Well, we went to beach day, which was a day organised for first year monash students at peninsulla and caulfield. It was absolutely the most awesome day ever! We played heaps of fun games, got to know heaps of new people, and i made lots and lots of friends. We had to try and suck up to the two leaders, the 'grand poo bars', to get points and first dibs on dinner. So, as my team was only 5 points in front and could possibly lose by the end, me and 3 other girls (including our team leader) decided the best way to win was to do a topless run down the jetty! It was soooo nerve racking, and there were old fishermen that saw us and laughed at us. One asked us to join him for some fishing! Eeeeewww! :-s I can't believe i actually did it, like, i've never really done anything like that before. Well, we won, and there was a line all the way down the park for dinner, so it was definitely worth it to be right at the front! Although, I'm still hoping there were no cameras around at the time. And, telling my dad wasn't exactly my greatest moment ever. But hey, it's uni, you're supposed to do things that are totally out of your 'comfort zone', or whatever it is! We went to a club after the beach, but it was a techno one, and that music drives me insane. I tried a shot that was really awesome tho, a 'quick fuck' (I was having a very sexually orientated day!), it tasted so good. It's the first shot i can actually do without spitting it all over myself!!! :-) We went to frost bites after that, and that was really good. So all in all it was a really fun day/night. I got to meet new people, learn stuff about the uni, and do stuff that i never thought i could! :-) And now, i can look forward to next week's party, being the sexed up o week party! We have to dress up in old school clothes, i'm thinking of going as a cheer leader :-) Should be fun!
See ya xoxo

P.S. Nat played his first professional game tonight! And he played really well, he's going to college for sure :-)

uni good now!

2005-02-23T19:04:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

I never thought i'd actually say this, but i think i'm actually gonna like uni! I went to the open day today thinking i would dread uni so much, but i made heaps of new friends. It's amazing how much more friendly monash is than deakin. And i signed up for the beach party on friday, which sounds like its gonna be heaps of fun! We get to play games on the beach, have time to get to know everyone, then at night we take off to the after party at a bar in st kilda. It's gonna be so much fun. I can't believe how much fun i had. And i also found out today that i'm not the only one bummed by the 8am lecture on a monday morning for journalism! I don't think many of us will be attending that one any time soon. Thank god all monash lectures are audioed for the lazy people like us's convenience! I think i'm gonna like uni. i really do.

See ya xoxo

me healthy :-)

2005-02-22T21:08:00.000+11:00

Heya,

I didn't have a very eventful day today. I just prepared myself for the horrible realisation that holidays are no more. Oh, but, i did make a smoothie today! and it tasted really good! except it blew up at me. U see, the blender clogged with the ice, and i thought it would be smart to opent he lid and unclog it with a spoon. Not a good idea. It went all over me, the kitchen and the little ornaments we have hanging from the roof. And the fact that it was a bright pink colour made it look all the more gross. So, that was the highlight of my day - i spilt smoothie all over myself, but it was ok, cuz it tasted really good :-) Anyway, must go sleep in preperatoin for open day at uni tomorrow. I hate the end of holidays!!!!
See ya xoxo

Rye good, uni bad...

2005-02-21T13:31:00.000+11:00

rye

Heya,

Thanks nat, for telling everyone that i think you're hot. I'm sure many other girls think so too. :-)
Now, back to what my next post was actually gonna be about: Rye was sooo much fun! Well, except for the wanka in the bushes at the beach (I mean that literally), and a certain unamed russian friend getting a little more vodka in her system than she could handle :-) Nah, it was really good, nice to get away for a couple of days and enjoy the company of good friends. And I certainly won't forget the rounds of DnM's I took part in, and tried so drunkenly to listen in on!

Now that we're back, however, its time to get into the 'i have to go back to uni now' fever. I'm sooo not ready to go back yet. I was planning on deferring for the year, and suddenly i'm due back in a week! Not good stuff. There's a big clubbing thing that my uni is having at crown tonight, but i don't really think i can be bothered going. However, if my friends go, i'll prob end up tagging along. I'm a bit of a victim for peer pressure when there's a night out involved :-) But most certainly, there will most definitely be no alcohol if we do go. I think we've all had a bit much for now thankyou very much!

nat is hot

2005-02-21T12:32:00.000+11:00

i think nat is very sexy

msn talk is cheap :)

2005-02-17T23:25:00.000+11:00

Heya,

I had to work tonight. I have actually decided that thursday is my least favourite day of the week. And friday is my favourite, cuz it means a whole week till i work again! I got a fake louis vuitton bag off my workmate though, so it was an ok night :-)

I got home to some news that bothered me quite a bit. You see, my friends have been goin through all this stuff lately. One has liked the other one for some time. I don't think i'm in any position to get involved, because at the end of the day it's their choice what they do. But so often, you see things that you feel so strongly would be so much better if one person did this, or one person said that. I hate that, because it puts you in the position of, do you get involved and say something? or do you stand back and let things be wrong?

Anyway, i think there is a problem going on here, and i'm going to highlight it through a story. Before nat was anything more than a friend, i was dating his mate andy. i have written about him before. We used to talk a lot through smsing. I had a folder for nice messages he sent me, and it was full to the brim. We'd also usually fight by sms. this caused a lot of problems for many reasons. We would both think of tactical ways to say what we wanted to say, and so the messages wouldn't be very honest. Everything would go around in circles, and get totally overdramatised. Then, after we broke up, he sent me an email to try and be friends. Again, it was all organised conversation, and not just raw feelings being vented. So nothing came of it. Now, to me and nat. We have had a total of one non face to face fight. And the only sms fight we had i blame on the fact that we were worried about seeing an old friend that night, an old immature friend, and as a result we fell back into old habits. We are always honest; we've both said things that were stupid, that made us laugh and cry, that made one of us want to pack our bags and go. Sms to us is just a way of organising who will be home at what time- and if he wants takeaway from my work while i'm working. :-) and msn? we talked once on it since we went out. I think it works so well this way, because we feel so comfortable around each other. We can talk about any feeling, any idea, and not worry about feeling uncomfortable. I don't know how i ever acted the way i did with andy!

So, these two friends of mine who like each other, they do alot of talking on msn. and on sms. There's a problem right now, that has resulted from no reply on msn. In a face to face conversation, no reply is impossible. Anything you do will be a reply. That's the thing about msn, it's so fake. I feel that if they just talked openly, face to face, things would be better. But, maybe everyone is different. I don't know. I just want it to work out and I don't want anyone to be hurt. But is that ever possible in love?

Gotta go sleep, off the rye tomorrow! see ya xoxo

I love my teddy!

2005-02-16T16:55:00.000+11:00

Nat gave me a me to you teddy bear for valentine's day. It's so so cute! It says on one side 'someone loves you...' and on the other side it says '...me'. I just wanna hug it all day! :-)

valentine's day: a weird day.

2005-02-15T22:57:00.000+11:00

Heya,

Well, another valentine's day over with, and another present giving session over and done. It's such a weird day. It has so many possible feelings attached to it. You can feel so happy, or so lonely. You can be glad and appreciative, or you can be dissapointed. It's like, i dunno, you see all these feelings coming from different directions. Listening to the radio, you hear all these people singing tragic love songs, although the dj's are usually single and cynical. And on tv, i was watching fox8, and there was this cheaters marathon. Down the bottom, there were all these sappy love messages. What the hell? You're practically torn between the happiness of the i love you sally! and we rock jon! and the people getting into fights on cheaters because, very obviously, they have found their lover in bed with another.

I got my present, and i loved it. And i got the news that i have been accepted into monash for second year journalism. I felt a part of a georgous guy's life yesterday, and i felt that my life had been made better by getting the course i wanted. But some people don't get that luxury. One of my bosses spent the night on the couch alone. It's so strange how differently people lead their lives. But i'm very happy, and i hope this feeling never changes.

See ya! and a happy valentine's day, xoxo

i'm not blonde, i swear!

2005-02-07T21:36:00.000+11:00

Hey,

I just worked out that the st. kilda festival is on this weekend rather than last weekend. If kj had been able to go, i would have looked like such a dickhead if we had have gone! Thank god we didn't. I'm still living down the thing that i did a week ago which made me look very very dumb!

Me and nat organised our romantic dinner for valentine's day. We're going to Donovans, a nice restaurant on st. kilda beach. Afterwards we're gonna go for a nice walk along the beach. How nice is that! :-)
Anywayz, gotta go
see ya xoxo

my plan :-)

2005-02-06T13:34:00.000+11:00

Hiya,

Well, i have made an executive decision this morning. i'm going to plan out my year! I am going to factor in everything i wanna do, and work out a way to fit it all in and still try and keep a good social life. And meanwhile, i'm going to plan my gym year out so that i'm totally organised for the year ahead, Therefore, i think this is my last 'brainless day'. I've so enjoyed doing nothing but shopping, plodding along in my uni work and college work, and putting social gatherings at the top of my list! Oh well, all good things come to an end i guess. Now i'm off to work out a full proof plan for the next year!

See ya xoxo

I missed u ilke! :-)

2005-02-04T17:50:00.000+11:00

Heya,

One of my closest friends ilke came back from turkey yesterday, and we met up with her for lunch today. It was so exciting, cuz she's gotten enganged to this guy who she's just fallen for, it's so sweet! She has an engagement ring and everything! And the story of how he proposed was so romantic. And we get to be the bridesmaids! Woohoo! We can take her shopping for the wedding dress and everything! And we can organise the hen's night. I'm so happy for her, i was really worried when she left that she would be forced to do something she didn't want to, but she really does seem happy with what's happened. And it seems like her fiance is really nice too, from what she tells us. I hope he likes us when he meets us!

I guess it's kinda weird, like she's gonna get married, while we're not even thinking about doing that. I mean, me and nat talk about where we would get married, who we'd invite, and stuff like that, but it's not like we'd actually do it for a very long time! I guess after high school people change, and they become so different in the end. I just hope the four of us, illy, kj, ilke and me, can stay friends, no matter how much we change :-) And then we can keep our drunken promise and be each other's bridesmades!!! haha

See ya xoxo

is your perception the only one?

2005-02-03T13:41:00.000+11:00

Hey,

I went with nat to get his testing done today to see whether he's dyslexic. The lady basically said from the start that he was, cuz he demonstrated all the qualities one would. He has english problems, can hardly read, and has trouble focusing. It's so weird though, like when he was talking about how he thinks, it's so different to the way i think. He has pictures in his head, and when he says something he doesn't think about the words or what they mean before they come out of his mouth. I on the other hand, think with words only. When i go to say or write something, i think about the sound and look of the word in my head beforehand. We're on such different ends of the scale: he's a totally visual thinker while i am completely verbal! I guess i always assumed everyone else thought the same as me, and nat said he always thought the same thing. He always wondered why he was so good at basketball, and now he understands that it's because he visualises possibilities on the court, and can understand the way a game of basketball works. I always wondered why i was so bad at art, but i enjoyed creative writing. I guess now i know why, because i think and like to reflect in words, not pictures.

See ya xoxo

i don't wanna go to basketball!!!!!

2005-02-02T17:41:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

I have to take nat to basketball now, i sooo don't wanna go. I wanna curl up in my nice warm bed with a hot choccy and listen to the rain!!! oh well, soon he'll have his licence, and i can happily kiss him goodbye on nights like this! :-)
We went shopping today, and i got nat a valentine's day present. He offered to get me a louis vuitton bag, but i decided that it's a bit of a waste right now. We need to save our money for furniture and house stuff. Maybe he can get it for me for my birthday :-)
Oh, and another good thing, we've all decided to go to rye for valentine's day weekend! It's gonna be soooo much fun, especially if everyone can go. I'm gonna take my boogieboard, and hang at the beach every day, and maybe drink just a little alcohol while i'm at it! Hopefully everything works out well :-)

Anywayz, gotta go get ready :-( see ya xoxo

YES!!!

2005-01-31T18:37:00.000+11:00

HEY! I JUST GOT KYLIE TICKETS, AND THEY'RE LIKE ALMOST FRONT ROW, WOOHOO!!!!!!!! (that's all i have to say for now) :-)

hahahahahaha

2005-01-30T22:40:00.000+11:00

hey,

i don't actually think i can tell the details of what happened today, but a reminder of it starts me giggling till i get a stitch :-D I did something very very blonde, and did something totally stupid that i don't think my friends will ever let me live down. Oh, Alfie was good, i actually liked it. But what happened today.... hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..... i really just think i shouldn't be allowed to do anything ever again without the consent of ilianna and nat. I'm serious, it was that bad!!!! Meanwhile, i'm trying very hard to come up with a present for nat for valentine's day. I used to have so many ideas of what to get him, but i think i've used them all up! oh well, if worst comes to worst, i'll just get him a ninja turtle doll (in leonardo of course). I've hinted to him to get me a louis vuitton bag, hey, i can dream :-)

See ya xoxo

just a quick hi

2005-01-30T13:37:00.000+11:00

Heya,

Well, i'm off to see alfie, which i really am not that desperate to see. I really actually dislike jude law, and apparently the movie's all about sex. AND we're seeing it at southland, or sadland as nat calls it. I avoid that place like the plague :-S Sounds great huh! :-) Hopefully it will turn out alright.

See ya

PS Kylie tickets are on sale tomorrow! YAY!!!!!

the best things in life are free :-)

2005-01-29T15:12:00.000+11:00

Heya,

I haven't written in a while, prob cuz i've been so busy working, and car hunting. I went through all my photos last night and put them into two different albums; the first is of my high school days, and the second is of the last year, where completely new faces have been showing up. I'm thankful that I have such great friends around me now, and I can tell by my face in the photos. Now i'm grinning from ear to ear, but in the old photos, i have this weird pout thing where i don't even really look happy. There was one thing that made me feel extra good today, and made me realise how special the simple moments are, and they can't be caught on camera.
Me and nat had a fight the other night, and we argued for a while before we worked it out. I always feel like we get stronger when we finish fighting, because we find out something new about each other and we can grow and get closer as a result. We really ended the fight yesterday. I know at times i can get pretty insecure, after having friends let me down, and boys, i sometimes worry that he will too. If he's not 100% loyal or kind or caring, i get upset and feel like he doesn't care, even if what he did wasn't intentionally to hurt me. He always says, 'I would never do anything to hurt you, so if you feel like i have, it wouldn't be intentional'. Anyway, last night we were both sick and fell asleep as soon as out heads hit the pillows, and today we had to be up early for nat's training. After that, we went car hunting, and finally arrived home to get some much needed rest. I couldn't sleep though, and so i just lay in nat's arms, feeling so protected and warm. Sometimes i think we forget how important those around us are, and how important they are to our happiness. I love every part of nat, and seeing him lying there, so content and wanting nothing but me by his side, i was reminded of that. No picture i have of him could bring me such a strong feeling. And my friends, especially illy and kj, and pearly who's known me since forever, I have photos with them too. But the feeling of being with them and feeling so comfortable about who i am can never be caught in a film. So i'll still hold my photos close to me, but the pictures in my heart are what counts for everything.

Anywayz, enough of me being sentimental, see ya xoxo

lots of funny stuff!

2005-01-26T13:56:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

We had such a good night last night! Everyone went to nachos, a mexican restaurant in aspendale, and then we all went back to my house for a much needed swim. I thought i'd just record some of the funny things that happened while they're fresh in my head:
- i tried out some of my self defence moves on dave and bram, resulting in me upside down over daves shoulder trying to pull his pants down! You have to pull up, not down, because everythings backwards upside down!
- kj flashed nepean highway after her boob tube fell down! She says she didn't really flash because she had a bikini on, but it was still pretty funny!
- Me and illy annoying phil continually. I don't know why, but his reaction was just really funny. By the end of the night, he'd told everyone illy was very attractive, and if she wasn't so mean he'd go for her. Go illy, hook in!!! :-)
- illy and bram doing their very interesting jumps into the water. Bram tripped on the way and we all thought he was gonna kill himself! Then he did a cruxifiction pose and went in. Ouch that would have hurt!
- Oh, and me and illy taking Phil's drink. Kirstin freaked cuz she thought it fell in the water! We wish now we had have filled it with pool water, i wonder whether he would have noticed the difference?
- Haha, kj telling us about how one of her exes shaved his, private part, and then illy thought we were talking about dave! At one point he offered to prove to us that he didn't shave it!
- Us getting rich to come over was really funny! Apparently i have a high pitched voice on the phone that is not understandable. I do not!
- Anton said i look like the girl that played amy on neighbours. I still can't decide whether thats a compliment or not. Tina said i look like buffy, and i'll definitely take that as a compliment!
- the continual jokes about kj's exes girlfriend! She was a very strange one, I'm sure you'll hear much more details on illy's blog :-)
- the usual who did megan get with this time talk! Apparently she got with stu, because, according to rich, i shut him down so very coldly. I didn't even speak to the guy! How could i shut him down? And no rich, his shyness doesn't make me a meanie! :-)
- us trying to call out to nathan my next door neighbour. He didn't call back! And bram even screamed like a girl! God damn it :-)

That's about all i can think of right now. I was supposed to go to a party at kj's cousins today, but i've got a bug off my dad, so i'm a bit sick. I think i'm gonna go look at the hondas today, but after test driving a bmw yesterday, i just don't think a honda could beat it. Gonna go get nat off his stupid video game and make him come with me now,
See ya xoxo

helping a cause

2005-01-25T13:17:00.000+11:00

Hey ppls,

I went out last night with nat to a charity dinner to raise money for the victims of the tsunami. It was a really good night and the restaurant ended up raising in excess of $10,000. I won a few raffle prizes too! I got a footy signed by robert harvey and a voucher for flowers, which nat is using for valentine's day :-) I was really glad that we went, because it really kept my faith in our compassion for others in pain, and our need to help them.
I was watching the news the other night with nat, and one thing really got to me about the tsunami aftermath. Apparently triple J, a crappy local radio station, was playing a song written by some sickos about how stupid we all were for giving money to the cause. They sang about how we're only doing it to feel better about ourselves and how stupid we all are... what dickheads! It makes me so angry that they are judging people who give to the charities, when they're probably living on the dole, which our government provides them, because they can't be bothered doing any work other than their 'music'. So often people judge others without getting the full story, and this case is even worse, because they're judging a bunch of people who are just trying to help those in need. The last thing we need is someone trying to stop people with more money giving it to those who have less.
It also annoys me how they expect us to give every single thing we have to people who don't have it. Again, they just judge us without knowing the full story. Well here's mine. My parents struggled as children. My dad actually lived in a car for some of his childhood. When my parents met each other, they both worked their butts off to make a living and to build a life for themselves and their children, so their children wouldn't have to struggle like they did. They went broke big time once. We were actually bankrupt. I was 4 and a half around then. But we got back on our feet, my parents worked really hard, and slowly they made a business which grew and grew. Then, we could afford to send me to a private high school. Mum wanted me to have the best education possible, so they did it. Then they could afford to send my sister to the same school in primary. We made more and more money until we hit the point where we could employ someone to do the work for us. Dad made some investments with the money we made, and that grew and grew. Now, I'm going out to look at a mercedes kompressor, and my parents are building me and my boyfriend a unit with all the best appliances and furniture. Anyone who met me now may think i'm a snob. Anyone who has all these nice things must be apparently. I lost a whole group of friends in high school because of jealousy. But it doesn't bother me. because thanks to seeing the jealousy in my old friends, i found new ones that were much better. They don't care about what i own, and if i get something cool, they're excited for me, not jealous.
So that it my story. I've written a lot, but it hardly even scrapes the surface. People have no right to judge me until they really know me. So note to the sickos who wrote that song: I'm one of the people who you're talking about. My mum and dad are too. And you don't know us at all, so next time you make up a song representing the entire population but yourselves, don't.

See ya xoxo

a good weekend :-)

2005-01-24T10:57:00.000+11:00

Hey y'all,

Well, Frost Bites was heaps of fun on saturday. Nat and a mate went to Crown and then picked us all up (in our drunken state!) when we were finished. I haven't been there in so long, it was good to go back and drink the slushies and dance on the podium again! :-)

We went to nat's friend Gheorgia's 18th birthday, and that was really interesting. His ex girlfriend Diana came and hung out with us for most of the time (diana and gheorgia are best friends). While we were there, we found out that my ex, andy, has a new girlfriend. She was at the party, and she was worried I would be upset that they were going out. For the record, we went out about 3 years ago, and i've been with nat for 15 months now. As if i would be upset about it! It made me wonder though, like what he would be saying about me to his new girlfriend. I guess when everyone leaves a relationship they take certain details and memories which they feel represents what the relationship was. I know that with andy the break up was bad, but i also know that within about 4 months i was ready to move on. The complication in that was that although I was over him, I didn't want to be his friend. I felt that he had betrayed me, and I didn't want a friend like that. However, I would have been very happy if he had have found someone else, because I wasn't necessarily bitter about anything. Maybe he had a completely different perspective though. I guess, me not wanting to know him would have told him that i wasn't really over it. If that was the case, as far as he's concerned, it was a terrible break up. And i took a lot longer than most to get over it.
One of the things i fear most when i'm in a relationship is that i'll end up 'one of the exes', just a story that's told to the new girl when she asks him about his past. It's really weird how you can be so important to someone for a time, and then just a story at another. Hopefully i won't ever be that to nat.

Anywayz, I'll stop my babbling, i gotta go now and convince monash that i should be allowed into their journalism course this year.

See ya xoxo

Home sweet home!

2005-01-22T13:45:00.000+11:00

me and nat by the beach.

Hey there,

Well, we finally got back on thursday. It's so nice to be home again. Nat and me took heaps of photos, like the one above, so we can get some framed for our house. Only a month and a half to go before its built! YAY!

I'm going out to Frost Bites tonight with my friends, and that should be really good! We haven't been there in like 3 months, cuz we've all been so busy. I've missed it but!

As soon as I got home, I looked at the whole changing uni's thing. I have to average in a 70 to get in, and I average in a 71! How good is that! I'm gonna go in there with illy on monday and harrass them to enrol me this year, but i know there's probably not much chance of that happening. I just have to accept that I'll try next year, and if i get in this year it's a bonus.

Nat and me have come up with a 6 year plan in the last couple of days, which i hope can work: He's gonna do vce for the next two years, and then go to college in america for 4. Meanwhile, I'm gonna study for the next 2 years, and hopefully study overseas where nat is for the rest. The only problem is we're gonna have trouble getting in the same state. I hope we can work it out somehow.

Anywayz, i gotta go look at some cars with dad. He wants to look at all the types before we buy one, so we know which one is the best. See ya! xoxo

getting homesick :-(

2005-01-18T18:21:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

i;m having such a good time over here in sunny adelaide, but i have to admit, i'm getting just a little sick of living out of a suitcase. And last night, security told us off for having our tv too loud in our room! So annoying! We spent the day by the beach today, and i think i'm finally starting to tan!!! :-) well, around my shoulder area anyway :-)

I have had the weirdest day. In the span of around 12 hours, i've decided that i don't want to go to deakin anymore. I want to go to monash. That's so weird coming from me, i mean, i hate monash! But i really think it's the best option. I want to do a course that is more what i want, and i've realised over the past month that professional writing isn't it. So my plan is this: I defer for 12 months at deakin, go to america in the middle of the year, write on a daily basis, and then apply next year. I really hope i get in! I would have made the clearly in enter this year by a few points, so surely i could do it next year? It's really surreal though, like now I have a year off. No going to uni for a whole year. Now there's a weird thought :-S
Anywayz, catch ya xoxo

from perth to adelaide i go...

2005-01-16T14:48:00.000+11:00

Hey there,
We're about to leave perth and go on to adelaide, to spend the next 4 nights relaxing by the beach. Perth has been so good, I just wish we could have stayed longer. I feel like we didn't get to see everything. But hey, I'll probably feel that way about adelaide too!

I've been doing a lot of research into the possibility of going over to america this year to get some work experience. I'm not sure though what work i want to do; i want to get over there and do some journalism work, but no companies seem prepared to hire people for that kind of thing. And my bf illy wants to come over too, but we can't both get jobs in journalism, she doesn't want to be a journalist! It's so complicating. Hopefully I'll be able to work something out when i get home. I really liked the idea of doing camp america, but that fell down when i found out you can't really do it with a friend. I did find one site that had work experience working for a charity, but i don't know if that means we'll be walking around the streets selling raffle tickets every day, which i DON'T want to do.
Anywayz, the plane is leaving soon, gotta go!
See ya xoxo

Helloooo from perth!

2005-01-13T21:36:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

Well, we just spent the day swimming amongst the wild dolphins in the middle of the sea! Today's been so much fun. And yesterday, we got massages and facials and lay by the pool in the afternoon. Sounds like the perfect holiday, doesn't it? :-) Tomorrow we're going to rotnest, which is a beautiful island off perth. We're gonna go bike riding, cuz there's no other way of getting around. I just know i'm gonna conk out after a few peddles, I'm so bloody unfit!
Anywayz, must go
See ya xoxo

long time no speak...

2005-01-09T13:26:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

I haven't written a post in so long, my writing teacher is gonna kill me when we go back to uni! :-S oh well, I'm starting up again, and my official excuse for not writing in so long is that my holidays have been soooo busy. They have! :-)
Christmas and new year were awesome, as they always are really, cuz u get lots of presents and you get to party heaps. We went to Canberra again to spend new years eve with Pearly, cuz we wanted to keep her company, and that was really good. Although Canberra is small and quiet, lots of people were out on the night, making for a really good atmosphere to celebrate.
I guess the best part about new years is the ability to start a fresh; last year me and nat decided to go out, and we've certainly never regretted making that decision, and I also chose which friends were important to me and which ones weren't. I wanted to do the same this year, and I feel like I really am starting 2005 with good people around me, from me and nat's friends to our families as well. We have so much to look foward to as well, like our house, my new car (I only bought it yesterday so I'm still in shock mode over that!) and nat not having to be in year 12 with all the pressures and stuff that came with it. I have work experience at a mag in Sydney, I'm completing my summer journalism course (ever so slowly!) and I got in the top 15% of the communications area of deakin. All in all, this year sounds like it'll probably be a good one!

Anywayz, gotta go, see ya xoxo

gym gitters :-s

2004-12-08T20:50:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

My junior gym girls have their assessment on friday. I'm so worried for them - some of them them will do really well, but some of them have their off and on days. We used to do the program really differently - they'd just learn a routine and they'd all pass automatically. But now, we have to properly assess them and often they fail. It's quite ironic, part of the reason we've done it this way now is because parents keep complaining that their kids are going nowhere. But what many parents don't understand is that their child doesn't want to go anywhere - they're just there for fun, and they don't care if they never compete. So, because parents have been complaining so much, we've had to make it harder on the kids, and now some won't be able to feel good about themselves at the end. If only the parents had just let their kids have fun, they wouldn't be so under pressure now.

See ya xoxo

Lots of things happening :-)

2004-12-05T15:59:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

god, i'm so tired, and it's not even christmas yet! I got my uni results and i was mostly happy. My communications mark has been deferred though, and i don't no why. The head of the unit is a little cookoo though, so maybe she had a problem with marking all the papers or something. It was pretty scary when i got the mark though, cuz all it said next to the subject was "RI". I thought I'd failed! Hopefully it ends up being just a delayed High Distinction. I wish :-)

The house is finished framing stage, so i'm starting to look at furniture. Nat's moved out of his house totally now, which is weird. I haven't slept in his room for weeks, which is a real change from while he was doing year 12. When he was packing his stuff he told me he never wanted to sleep there by himself again. 'You've pretty much got me for keeps now' he said.... So sweet! And he's getting me a dolce and gabbana watch for christmas. Everything is really good between us, and i just don't see it ever getting bad :-).

My good friend ilke is going to Turkey soon to be set up with potential husbands, which really sucks. She's not happy bout it, and she's found the best guy over here, and they seem so happy together. It's such a shame how she has to do whatever the tradition says, and she can't be happy. She says she's just gonna say no to all the guys who ask for her hand, but if she's pressured into it, i'm not so sure what she'll do. I just hope, at the end of the day, that she can be happy.

Anywayz, they're just a few things going on in my life at the moment, now i gotta go clean my room, because its so messy right now you can hardly walk through it!
See ya xoxo

Our house is coming!

2004-11-29T20:50:00.000+11:00

Hey there,
I can't believe it, our house is actually starting to look like a house! And it's only been 3 working days!!! Me and nat walked in there tonight, and worked out where we're gonna put all the furniture. I can really see it coming to life, like i can see myself and nat in it. We are sooooo looking foward to it being finished!
Catch ya xoxo

i am never going out in the sun again.

2004-11-26T10:25:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

I am so burnt right now i can hardly walk. My knees have trouble bending, and my elbows are in constant pain. I never want to get burnt again!!!
I went to the beach with illy and kirstin, and whilst i had to leave early to go to work :-(, we had a really good time. I hardly ever see kirstin during the day time, usually i see her when we go out at night, so it was a nice change from the usual environment. The sun burn that came with it however, is not so good.

They started building our house yesterday!!! They finished the base, which is sooo cool. Nat and me are starting to get really excited now. We're gonna have to do some furniture shopping now... which will be a lot of fun! I just can't wait till it's finished, cuz then we can finally start really living together. I mean, we're living at my house at the moment, but it's just not the same as having our own space. I wanna be able to cook when i like, make mess and clean where i like, and be able to watch anything on the big tv! So excited :-)
Anywayz, see ya xoxo

I'm baaaack! :-)

2004-11-21T09:03:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

God, it's good to be home. I had a great time, but sleeping in my own bed, having a shower in my own shower, not having to worry about where I put my tickets or my id or anything else every 2 seconds! :-)

We had heaps of fun in both Sydney and Canberra. Pearly took us around everywhere, which was really cool, and we did heaps of stuff, like go to the comedy night (which was soooo funny), try frozen custard, VERY YUMMY!, and visit all the sites in Canberra. Then it was off to Sydney, which although it was difficult to find our hotel, and find the shops, AND find the Rocks, we still had a good time. It was so weird walking through Sydney again - the memories from last time came flooding back so quickly. There was this one store, the Virgin music store, where Nat and me had a massive fight over him buying a video. He thought it was worth it because it was only $2, but I thought it was a waste. I can't believe we used to fight about those things now!!! I guess we were both irritable back then because we wanted to go home - we had been away for a month. But still!! I mean, fighting over $2!!

Anywayz, once we got back it was good to relax again, and not worry about what we're going to do for the day. I got my summer journalism course material too, so I'm real excited about that. And last night I went out with my 3 bestest friends, kirstin, ilke amd ilianna. We just got some vids, a bottle of tequila, and had a very merry night :-). We all promised each other we'd be each other's brides maids at some point too. I wonder if any of them remember it :-)
See ya xoxo

Cystic Fibrosis ball.

2004-11-14T13:50:00.000+11:00

Well, last night was really good. Nat looked quite spiffy in his bow tie, and we had a really good time. I never really knew what cystic fibrosis was; I was just really looking foward to the ball. But now I get why they want to find a cure so badly - so many kids suffer this disease, and they need constant medical care to keep alive. I can't even have a needle, let alone having to have one every day! I really think that when i have some extra time i'll try donate some time to help the committee out. They work so tirelessly to raise money for research, it must be so hard for them to keep going sometimes. They had a big auction, and Nat wanted to buy the Michael Jordan signed picture. However, considering the fact that it went for around $2000, i think we;re gonna need to save a bit first!

On another note, I'm off to Canberra tonight! Pearly, my friend form Canberra, is coincidentally on the same flight as us, so we are gonna have heaps of fun on the plane catching up. I have to give her her birthday pressie too, which is a few months late, but its the thought that counts, right?.. I hope she likes it :-)
See ya xoxo

an exciting night tonight :-)

2004-11-13T13:21:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

Well, we've got the cystic fibrosis ball tonight, and i'm pretty excited about it. Nat isn't necessarily as happy, cuz he has to wear a bow tie, but i know deap down he's really looking forward to it :-) Oh, i got work experience at a new magazine in sydney for march next year! It's gonna be really good, especially cuz i can put it on my resume, and plus i get a holiday in sydney for a week :-) It really got me in the mood for finding work experience though, so I rang a stack of radio stations, tv stations and magazines. They all gave me so much information, I can't believe i never thought of doing this! Hopefully it will be a step in the right direction to being what i want to be. Journalism is such a hard business to break into, so getting all this info will hopefully get me in the door. Anywayz, gotta go,
see ya xoxo

finally its over!

2004-11-09T21:36:00.000+11:00

Hey there,

woohoo! :-) it's all over, i am free for the whole summer now!!!!! This is the most awsome feeling in the whole world!!!! Now i can do all that stuff i promised myself i would do when it was finally over. I think i did ok onmy exams, but i guess i'll just have to wait and see. I'm gonna start a course in journalism now, and do that over the summer, so i'll still be doing stuff, just on a lot more of a relaxed level!! :-) Nat's last exam is on Thursday, so soon he'll be able to celebrate with me. We decided to go to a movie on friday, which will be good, cuz we haven't done that in quite a while. I missed being able to just go out and forget about studies, and now i can just get back to that. Yay! So unbelievably excited right now!!!
See ya xoxo

p.s. only 4 more days till we jet off to visit pearly in Canberra! I know it's supposed to be a hole and we'll prob get bored of seeing governmental stuff, but hey, let me have my moment! :-)

ready to go...

2004-11-06T19:53:00.000+11:00

Hey there,
well, we booked the tickets today. We're off to Canberra on the 14th of this month. It feels like it's ages away, but then i remind myself that it's in the next week. I really wanna check out the journalism college there, maybe it would be a good place to move with nat so he can get some quality basketball. It'll be so good to get a break, i'm so sick of studying . . . .
Nat's exams finish this thursday. It's hard to believe that this year is finally coming to an end. I mean, i never thought we'd get this far. I remember at the beginning of the year, it seemed like a million miles away. And now we're thinking about summer, and christmas, and nat going to uni, and us maybe moving to somewhere different. It feels so good . . . i only have to feel stressed till tuesday, i keep reminding myself of that . . . but it still feels like it's never gonna end :-)
See ya xoxo

to canberra we go!

2004-11-04T13:21:00.000+11:00

Hey there,
Well, nat and i have decided to go to canberra!!! not exactly the best place to go to celebrate our exams huh... but i've never seen parliament house, or... well, i'm sure there's other monuments in our country's capital that i'd like to see. We're going to Sydney tho, which will perhaps be a bit more exciting, and i'm gonna go check out the college of journalism. Sydney seems like it has a lot to offer both me and nat; it has a good basketball team for him, and if i wanna be a journalist, then Sydney has the best magazines, tv stations, newspapers etc. Hopefully we;re gonna stay in Darling Harbour, like we did last time. It's so nice there, and everything is just a walk, or train ride, away. Hopefulky i'll get to hang out heaps with pearly too! So excited!!!! :-)
Only have to wait until tuesday, and then i can start organising it! YAY!!!
See ya xoxo

a long long night...

2004-11-02T16:47:00.000+11:00

hey there,

work was a pain last night. With the melbourne cup on today, everyone drank themselves stupid, and then didn't leave until around 12:30. We were all so tired, we were desperately trying to get all the tables ready for the next day just so we could get out of there. Anyway, it was weird, this lady came up to me and was telling me all about how two people on her table had been together for 5 years, and she wanted to order a cake or something. Being a chinese restaurant, the closest thing we had to cake was a fried icecream, so i got that ready for her. But just before she went, she said, "It's for the two bald guys over there". I was kinda shocked, not that i'm against gay people or anything. I just have never really seen it in front of me, so open like that. When i brought the fried icecream out, ervyone sang them a song, and then made them kiss! everyone in the restaurant looked kinda freaked out, but i thought it was really good. There were lots of people on this table, and by first glance, you wouldn't think they'd be so open about gay people. But it was just as normal as any relationship to them. If only more groups would be like that :-) Anyway, see ya.

i'll do it when exams are over...

2004-11-01T14:41:00.000+11:00

hey there,
i've noticed, that quite often, i've been using the same line lately. WHenever i think of something to do or go, i always think 'i'll do it when exams are over'. My friend's do it alot too. My good friend pearly, who's in Canberra at the moment going to ANU, just wrote me an email saying the same thing - she wants to get healthy and fit when exams are over. SO, i decided to make a list of all the things i wanna do when i finish exams:
1. eat properly and get fit by returning to the gym!
2. clean my room.... ok, i think we all know that won't happen...
3. start looking for furniture for me and nat's house! Yay, so exciting :-)
4. Decide where we're gonna go for christmas eve/ new years eve. So many choices!
5. Sunbake until I don't need to wear fake tan anymore!
6. go out on a basis of more than once a month... i know, it's very sad, but i've been way too busy...
7.get organised for the uni and cystic vibrosis balls!!! SO MUCH FUN!

ok, i thnk that's enough ideas for one entry. It's funny though, i mean, we all say we're gonna do this stuff after exams, like after exams we'll be totally free of responsibility. Does anyone (including me) actually realise that we'll be in the same position in 6 months??? I guess not :-) Anywayz, see ya.

kirstin's bday

2004-10-31T17:34:00.000+11:00

hey there,
big night last night... went to my old school friend, kirstin's 19th. It was a really good night, we went to taco bills, and everyone got those straw hats when they ordered a 1.25 litre margarita. I ended up with a hat somehow, but i have nno idea whos it is! :-) We went to the beach after, which was perhaps not the best idea, cuz i ended up in a water fight with kirstin's friend dave, and when i totally sobered up, i realised how cold it was... it was bloody freezing! :-)

It's so good that we can all still keep in touch tho, especially since school's finished. Kirstin, and my other friend ilke, were really good to me in year 12 when i was having probs with my other friends. They showed me what a true friend is. I really appreciate having them in my life :-)

My best friend illy also got quite anebriated last night, it's been so long since we've gone out, so it was good to let our hair down for the night. I met some really cool people too, like this guy dave, who's from Ireland. He sort of had an irish accent, and it was funny talking to him and mucking around at the beach, although Nat cracked it at me when i got wet, cuz i think he could see the cold i'd end up with. I don't think i liked the margaritas tho. One minute you're feeling fine, and the next you're totally out of it! Anywayz, see ya :-)